Enjoying a sunny christmas

Heh when I was in college and younger I thought it should be white for christmas but now nice riding weather is the BESTEST for any holiday or time off I have. Rode Lady yesterday and Shade today and should grab Sadie for a quick bit in the areana--and no sinus episodes since wednesday night. Only off note is mom and dad were carping at each other a bit. Well they squabble a lot, but have stayed married over 45 years. I tell people that I think the 'Leave it to Beaver' family is fairly rare in real life.

please no sinus infection

Hope the episode at 2:30am was brought on by the dental cleaning, I don't want to stay home with disappointed parents and feeling tired/scared to ride in case I get a sudden bout of painful sinus pressure -- talk about a careful what you wish for moment.


Office 12:44. I think the pushy boss who remembers "I asked you to understand every line of the code" where I remember "understand the readme file and how to run the code" with no foreknowledge that I was going to have to convert said code to read new format, let alone the sticky mess I think I have is on vacation this week. How nice would it be *IF* I had I known in advance so I would have known to push through as far as I could get and ask any questions that came up while he was still around.

There are very few cars in the parking lot. Well that is typical. They only give Christmas day (Christmas eve this year since 25th is saturday) as an official holiday but with generous PTO that is generally flexible for everyone to take, even with just short notice, the place is usually pretty dead the 2-3 days before Christmas.

All I want for xmas ...

Is to stay home and enjoy my horses. Well I will get that on christmas day so enough with my whining. Its no use wishing the parents would have traveled w/o me; If wishes were cars beggars would drive (modifying the old saying because beggars certainly couldn't afford to feed horses in this day and age)

I need to buckle down and get some work tasks done. I have some routine ones I can do even while my brain remains stuck in idle. Grey got his second shot of penicillin today. I skipped last night but dad was up this morning so I made him hold the twitch so I could give a rump shot. So tonight I can give Grey a shot in the neck and I should be able to do that solo. I will try to get 2x/daily shots in him for at least 3 days.
Every morning when I feed I am bringing over 2 bales of hay for P to feed while we are gone. We got some hay this summer that is really nice and the bales feel about 10 lbs heavier than what I've been taking off the stack delivery we got from another grower. So I'm bringing that over since I wont have P graining except maybe AJ and I will not be worried about them having enough if its a bit colder. By sunday morning when I feed before we take off I should have 16 bales to cover the feedings while we are gone.

Arrived home to Christmas lights last night

So I guess dad was all depressed about not going to ND, and mom is also getting some bounce out of the thought of going. Merry Christmas parents. Saturday dad went to a gun show and did shopping therapy as well. What a pity mom only wants to go if the alternative is staying home by herself and covering chores and dad wouldn't even think of just going by himself. He is retired and could have spent 2-3 weeks if he went by himself and he was driving a big semi over the road until a couple years ago so its not like he has any concerns about driving long distances - but it does not even occur to him that he could just travel on his own. Men are such big babies, sis and I drive back and forth solo all the time and even mom drove up to by herself to spend time with grandma and visit HS friends a few years ago. Oh well I did decide I would do the trip as a present to him and I need to keep considering it in that light and honestly I'm not going to mind being away from the office for a bit, although I expect I'll be trying to log in and check on and launch jobs almost daily but ~ an hour and not in the stupid office vs all day and going in so I can be more productive with multiple screens and full copy/paste will still be a pretty good break.

Plus this SHOULD keep me focused and productive instead of being just a chair warmer in the office which often happens when I'm not taking PTO the day(s) before the official holiday and everyone else is taking off. The lunar eclipse was cool last night. When the eclipse was full the moon was visible in red.

I still can't decide on giving Grey a round of penicillin. His dumb knee is still draining. Well I think he had a mini abscess that blew out. No heat, swelling or soreness so I have only been making sure it can keep draining, but because I wont be around to see if starts to look bad I am wondering if I should just give a round of antibiotics and its too late for the tucoprim, I wouldn't even be around to give him a week let alone the 10 days I'd want.

Well I'll be up that late --wonder if I'll see the lunar eclipse

I hope its not too cloudy to see it. I might flip the outdoor breakers to see if I can squelch the light pollution from all the yardlights and see it from inside the nice warm house. I could potentially adjust my sleeping hours to get interested in astronomy but I think I'd need access to a nice, heated observatory. I get chilled and am done in nothing flat for big stuff that can be seen with naked eye, but I have to be outside to see it. Also my touchy neck complains about twisting up to try to see things. Yeah excuses. As with nature shows its nicer to just see the best pictures compiled into a presentation than sit there in live time. I only like my nature from the back of my horse :P

I rode my Ayrab mares on sunday

Weather gave me a wonderful gift of warm, sunny and no wind. So I was surprised that Shade was acting like a snorty, spooky thing that only a crazy lady would ride. Oh well she has to have her ayrab days. I stayed on and didn't feel like anything got wrenched.

Was a couch potato for a bit and then rode Sadie and she was in Ayrab mode too. She did her first acting out under saddle. First, while we were still on ground work she was giving some big snorts and she acted like a tumbleweed in the arena was going to eat her, especially when I picked it up and held it for a bit before walking over to the fence and tossing it over. Then she was snorty about the corners near the road and did actually come hopping out of them a couple of times. She pulls up really easily thank god since I'm just in the wintec dressage saddle. Its a deep seat, and grippy suede but no swells to help if a horse gets raunchy. I was annoyed after the second time and made MS Sadie trot under saddle for her first time. Which resulted in another bit of run/hop ing when I tried to keep her going until she got into a rhythm. So one last bit of trotting and I asked her to stop after 1/2 a lap and stopped on that semi-good note.

good grief

I hope I'm just getting plenty of fluids and the office is a bit chilly today. So many trips to the bathroom today its ridiculous.

SO CLOSE --

and yet so far. Black box code is running now but covariance or ??? #'s aren't right.

AND..... Everything I tried made the #'s go REALLY crazy. Sighhh. Oh well, I must maintain the meh attitude on this one. Its not my fault I was given faulty stuff 5 months ago.

Ugh politics/media.

Feels like conservatives are getting rolled in this lame duck congress session. Sigh, I hate the MarxSpewMedia. and I also don't understand how an 'industry' which has been private and for profit became so infested with Marxists. How can people be clever enough to infiltrate, lie low, gradually creep up the Marxism yada yada and still believe in that crap? How many examples of history do they need before they understand how bad it is? I guess its the seductive allure of being a member of the elites, and the big money behind them does benefit if they get a state system which blocks up and comers so they don't face any competition. YUCK.

The Blahs:

Had to look it up while I was waiting on cpu program to work or not . its "The Blah" with no ess.

This was a funny kids book IIRC, I may not be spelling it right though. A pretty good nights sleep last night had my back/SI feeling mostly good after being very tight when I finally left work. Thanks Ole for sleeping with mom or on the couch :P I hate to shut him out when he wants to sleep with me cuz I think he'll be more likely to run off at 1st chance then. He's actually been pretty good lately, knock wood. I have been remembering to put him on his trap pretty good but he has stayed a few times not on it the last few weeks. Rode Shade today, my back felt like it was tightening shortly after I dismounted. Probably created some new tensions with her jumping a bit but I just loff riding her, if I were to be very honest I get a bit of an ego boost being able to ride the 'jumpy arab' -- scare quotes because she and Grey both do the spooks but its almost always just one jump and done, not like having to stay centered on a horse and calm them down as they whirl around or anything.

Stopped at the convenience/gas station and got a breakfast burrito for lunch. I have only cooked one lunch since I realized I was tired of the frozen lunches. Mom had made a big pan of lasagna, there was the staff potluck, and I've gotten breakfast burrito's a couple times on my way to work. I'd probably be horrified to know the # of fat grams in these. Someone local makes them and sells them through that station. I'm not even sure I can say they are tasty as they are so spicy hot I don't taste much else. But I like them and I feel like the spicy helps wake me up :P

Got to work to find a frozen screen so I had to reboot and it is work that is giving me blahs. Perhaps I should consider quitting this summer. I wish I had consulted with siblings about the oil shares last year, if I had included them in correspondence from cousin and they had not opted to go in full shares I might not have felt obligated to divvy up, oh well I could live in WY on the revenue from the shares I retained if it continued at last months level, I'd just hate to be relying on that. I need to try to estimate the costs I would have, maybe look into buying into a Service Master business or something. Or just get over being whiny about work :P

I HATE project X

Urk urk urk. What does one do with a boss who pretends one has had data that didn't exit on a cpu you had had access to? I am not so sure data is around at all anymore. Wait until the deadline is looming and then start asking about stuff he earlier told me to never mind that just skip and do this? WTH, I NOT like being set up to be a fall guy. Not like at all.

**New update** data has been found (sort of ) the format is different and the program I was supposedly expected to have run for this unavailable until tuesday dataset can NOT read the new format. I had to google to even be able get started today as the PI was usual unhelpful self telling me to look where I already had which was missing one of the new variables and then pointing me to one of those doc pages that might as well be in greek for all they good they do. Thankfully google pulled up a program that dumped some basic information including the CHANGED ?! name of the matrix section of the binary file --too bad the old format had a 2*21 dimension and the new file's format is 10*10. That aint working and I don't have clue one about which of those 100 values are needed now or should they all be used and interpolated to 7*7. Why only 21 used before etc etc. I'm not fond of just doing black box processing but have been doing only that with this project as it seems so complicated. I'm going to request not to be a co-author on report and any paper. I am not comfortable with the amount of data massaging, it may well be fine but since I don't understand all the math and statistics of it I dont want to appear to 'sign off ' on it in any way.

mini whine, slight headache

I think the n.s. has pretty well kicked in and it doesn't hurt, just a fuzzy discomfort, but if I cant whine to my blog where can I whine :P

The group potluck and white elephant gift exchange was OK. My gift was last thing taken, OK, just rolling it in a Target shopping bag did not make it very attractive --none of the liberal, save the planet co-workers went for it instead of a traditional wrapped or gift bagged present, well they are libs, they rarely walk their talk :P I almost took it myself to save it from orphanhood but chose to steal an LED flashlight set that someone else had. I hope the group boss is not unhappy with the truffles and chocolate and candy coated blueberries as he ended up taking it off the table. 1st # gift chooser stole the flashlights in turn from me so I wound up with a photo album. Its all right I had had it on my list of possible wants. At least I didn't take a gift off the table that I didn't want and no one else had interest in either, which happened to me at the last WE I had attended a decade ago. I ended up giving the coloring book and magic markers that only write on that paper to my boss at that time after that party. Heh it really was at least a decade ago, now he is dealing with teenagers. I decided then that I would take an opened gift or my own gift at any WE I attend in future.

Christmas list

Probably stupid to do here, but I can copy it to a better printer option.

What I DONT want. Elec. jack for horse trailer. If I use a bottle jack it goes pretty decent. Rather have that several hundred dollars going somewhere else.

What I do want.

Replacement floorboard -oops I think i mean runningboard, the floor is solid or I would fix immediately. on the trailer.

Brakes checked, repaired if needed, bearings packed on the big trailer

My sky hook from little trailer moved to big trailer, needs replacement backing pieces and maybe a bolt or two.

Cupboard installed over the window in my LQ area like Naomi's trailer has.

Step on my pickup box (maybe one on each side)

*for Ed or Naomi ---
I could use the third boxed set of Terry Goodkinds Wizards first rule series.

I could use some CW or classic rock CD's

farrier day today

I made the mistake of catching Grey and Shade first. I was thinking I would let fidgety Sadie and Lady continue eating hay and the day keep warming, but what happened was the wind came up right as Shade was done. Lady was acting like a brat. After a while when the "no you cant have my foot shenanigans were escalating" L noticed Lady's neck was about as rigid as a statue with tension and spent a couple minutes rubbing her neck and making Lady look at L instead of away and Lady relaxed a bit. So then I rubbed on Lady's neck while L was working and Lady stood better and L was able to finish up. As far as I know L has a good customer base so I'm not putting her name out, I don't want her to get too busy and not want to come out anymore, its a hefty commute for her but she has said she has other customers in the area so hopefully she can schedule things to minimize driving. I gave her $20 extra for christmas tip and because of Lady. I gave her extra last time too because Cindy had been hard to get her front feet done. Well L has been charging less than R used to do so giving a little extra is not hard to do.

Sadie was pretty good, moved around a bit before standing and letting L have a foot but she stood pretty good while L had her foot. Although she nipped my hand a bit right at the start, smartass little wench, doing it when I wouldn't go John Lyon's "I'm going to kill you" for 3 seconds because L was working under her. It was not a serious "I'm pissed" bite, but is wasn't just lipping my glove for any flavoring either. I was able to prevent any more nips just by paying close attention and gentle bump of her nose corrections when she was thinking about doing it again.

Nice little ride this morning

I kept daydreaming about possible homes for Lady, but I enjoyed riding Shade this morning. It was so warm I had to remove my windbreaker, thankfully enough breeze I was ok with sweatshirt and Shade was not too hot and sluggish. Then I ate at home. Last night I was in the frozen foods aisle, and realized I have somewhat suddenly hit a wall on eating microwaved frozen quesadilas, or mini pizzas, sandwich pockets etc. I was looking at the breakfast items and went "well I could just make myself some scrambled egg skillet things and bring in, no need to pay this much for stuff that wont taste nearly as good. So while I'm still on pbj on toast for breakfast I guess I'm going to have a bit of a skillet egg kick for lunches, maybe supplemented with some hearty stew/chile/soups once in a while. I am not in a mood for chefs salads.

Grey's knee didn't seem swollen today and the pad was no longer over the scratch/poke so I just put some povidone salve on it. I think this salve is thick enough to stay in place on a 60 degrees day. His cut is ok. I think he's going to have a bit of proud flesh there but the wonder dust/ lime will keep it from getting too ugly.

I bought some no name truffle candy for the white elephant deal at work. I had toyed with the idea of making bath salts or body scrub with feed salt rather than $$ dead sea salt but the candy was right there in the store in a holiday end cap display and I didn't have to spend time trying to decorate a jar, picking out and mixing scents or any of that rot.

Forgot to drive the pickup today

I should drive it some time this week. Going to try to drive it 2-3 times a month this winter and hopefully avoid having clogged fuel injectors again cuz that $$$ repair bill sucked.

The wrap was still in place on Grey's right knee. Knee still looks swollen but I think less than yesterday. Yeah photo progression would be good -but I'm so non-talented at lining up shots that I probably couldn't tell much anyway. The actual scratch/poke did not seem to be draining much. I put the same stuff on it again today anyway. His cut on his LH foot (very technical term :P ) looks like it is healing fairly well.

I didn't move fast enough to think about riding. It did not feel too pleasant until I fetched Ole in before leaving for work at 11 am, but I was only wearing jeans and a jacket so it would have been fine for riding in my winter breeches if I'd had more ambition.

Drivers license renewed -check

Thank goodness that is done. I had actually forgotten about doing it this week, but I dinked around too slowly this morning and then found I had to mess with Grey's knee so I didn't get my hair washed before having to get to the chiro appt and it was driving me nuts. The DL place is in the same old shopping center as the nearest hair place so after I got my hair washed and cut I went and got the DL renewal done. They had a lot of people in line but got me through with arriving at 4:18 and they close at 5 -well the poor picture gal still had some behind me at 5:15 so good on the staff there for being efficient and courteous to everyone.

Photo is just me at my desk, I don't get to see what the DL pic will look like until they mail the completed new license. They punched a hole in my current license and gave me a 4x10 sheet of paper that is my temporary. Hopefully I wont need to show my DL until the new one arrives.

Daily whine: I noticed my throat starting to feel raw while waiting to get my DL picture taken. It doesn't feel like just dehydration although I have only quaffed caffeinated drinks all day so its possible. I don't want to get sick, I hate being sick, especially with a dratted cold.

Arghhh! I think that stupid gelding wants to be lame

When he and CJ were acting tough over the fence Grey managed to give himself a poke right over his knee. I did not think it was too bad and just left it. Well I guess I should have flushed it and made sure it would drain and probably given the jerk ANOTHER round of antibiotics because his knee is swollen today. I was just going to slop some povidone salve on it but I couldn't find that jar and stumbled on the jar of dmso and the jar of furacin while I was searching --so I figured I was being given a sign and put a telfa pad with too much dmso/furacin mix gooped up on it over the poke spot and a couple wraps of vet wrap and elastic tape. I had so much excess greasy mixture I had to cut off 10 inches of elastic tape that came unwound before I had even finished taking my second wrap with the tape at the bottom of the bandage. So I will not be shocked if the bandage is around his fetlock or completely gone by tomorrow morning.

I had my monthly chiro appt this morning and when Dr T asked me how I was I said my back was tight and I was blaming it on my gelding for seeking out injuries in his old age when he is supposed to be old and wise enough to avoid dumb injuries.

Grey Moun's owie update

I think there is a bit of healing progress (the open area is getting shorter) but its slow. A few days ago I thought it was a nice hard scab so I left it, next day it was very raised up and loose so I have been plucking at the scab every day now. Today I made it bleed at the bottom. I've switched to using only the wonder dust, no more alushield spray as main focus is to try to limit amount of proud flesh until the skin can eventually grow over that area. I am forcing myself to be a bit more stingy with hay. Having CJ over there it should be 1 bale for 1 feeding. Didn't start on a new bale though, but I am trying to come out close. I was feeding more generous than the horses needed. Better than stinting them but they don't need to be fed to obesity either.

Ahh, I think I needed a work free weekend

I rode Lady yesterday. I need to get my butt in gear and assemble what paperwork I have for her and get a brand inspection. She is not a rookie mount but would be perfect for an experienced rider with some physical limitations --Like N, the teen that had her until the P/R/O team as I like to call them ruined the economy and they couldn't afford to keep her GRRR. But Lady will test a rider a bit but it takes SOOO little strength to correct her with a leg or rein and she is a pretty smooth ride.

Rode the bay girls today. I really noticed Shade being pokey today. She was having one of her days where it takes her a long time to warm up and be ready to move out and even on the way home was relaxed and grabbing bites. But Shade has a high gear once she gets warmed up and thats FUN. Sadie was pretty good. She was a bit scooty today but immediately checked every time when I reined her up. She is such a good, calm girl, she is giving me confidence to continue playing with the long lining with her. Jo did such a good job, Sadie has no concerns about the lines bumping around her back legs and she stops nicely on the rein pressure and then lets me get directly behind her and ask for a step back. Sadie actually trotted a step or two a couple times when I was asking for a more forward walk when I climbed in the saddle for a few minutes. I checked her up though, I did not feel ready for speed when she was a bit scooty generally and I just have not felt she feels solid enough balancing me to be ready for faster gait. I don't want her to bobble in case she would decide that was a reason to buck. I don't have too much confidence I could ride out very much of a rodeo.

trying to get up some ambition

It was gray this morning and I checked the forecast, not very warm and I rode yesterday so 'maybe I should just go to work today' get some stuff done in case we trek to ND to pile in on the relatives. I am faced with a very big task at work, I should be angry at the supervisor for that project (so much fun having 3 bosses/3 jobs btw) because he led me to think 'oh thats already done' all I need to do is work on plots. NOT. However I am just feeling meh rather than angry.

I put CJ in with Sadie and Lady this morning. He walked out of his pen when I left the gate open to fish ice out of water trough. I was thinking he needs to join a group to simplify farm sitting chores if we go to ND anyway. He and Grey have been squealing over the fence. Grey already got his foot over the electric 'rope' fence one, jerked free I don't think he did much of a rope burn. Danged gelding is so stupid in his old age. He has always been a bit of a pill to push boundaries when put in with strange horses and I swear he is less mindful of dangers and more pushy now than when he had the excuse of being 'young and dumb'.

Perhaps he feels like he is not the main mount and can be stupid now, since Shade is the endurance horse. But dangit while I am fine with Grey being practically retired already I DO want to be able to take him on the hunting trips and be able to hop on him just for grins a few times a year like I used to do with Cindy so I sure wish he would knock it off with the daring injury to happen crap.

I am ready to run away from home Ole wise today. He wanted to go out to see about the horse squealing, thinks he should have a run today and I am inclined to run off to work and not mess with dogs, etc etc. I kind of like dogs but really I would rather not have any that have much attachment to me. Like if I was married and the DH had a dog that was really his dog. Ole is officiallly the parents dog but they are so lazy about exercising dogs etc that he kind of thinks he belongs to all of us --plus its his street dog personality to think he belongs to every human in the universe anyway. *I* would not have chosen that dog personality because we have neighbors and they don't like visiting dogs, but we let dad choose the dog after mom brought home the little japanese breed dog that had some fear of men and nipped dad and had to be returned to the stupid shelter.

Afternoon update. Well dad went shopping or something so I punted on going to work. Mom is dragging around again so I really cannot see us going to ND but I need to get an answer so I can plan on either having to get stuff done ahead of time or not. I would rather go in Feb I think. Of course if its nice here in Feb I won't feel that way but December is so busy for people, I hate to drop in for a visit with relatives we are not all THAT close with and the way dad seems to only be awake 6-8 hours a day, mom is moaning with head pain every other day and I'd be stressed about work I do not thing we would be a positive for sister recuperating from surgery.

TGIF

really is there any reason to elaborate on that? But I don't want to do real work just yet.

I had a fun ride this morning. I guess I'm twisted because the wind was blowing and Shade was a bit jumpy from the tumbling tumbleweeds but when one stays horse side up and the wind is not damp and raw its just exhilarating to ride in it. Ole was a good boy and I did not have to get off and grab his leash at all. I really did not want to since Shade was jumpy I figured I'm safer if I just stay riding instead of trying to lead both her and the dog :P.

I was so late I thought about just grabbing lunch at home then but nothing looked good in fridge or cupboard so I just grabbed a jalopeno burger and root beer float at the drive through. Much richer meal than I needed. Dragged into work and have semi-panic emails from the sys admin because results aren't getting posted until 30 minutes after the hour. So I tell him its because one of the networks is down for data access and get my boss to nudge the agency. Then get some coffee, do some snooping and find the agency had just fixed the data about 20 minutes before I had my boss email them. OOPS. :( So write another email thanking the staff I had emailed yesterday for fixing the data and cc'ing everyone my boss had emailed. I did not mention that the data was available before extra email was sent. Not feeling too badly about nagging the agency because data went down at 5 am yesterday, I notified them a little after noon and they only got it going again around noon today. Usually unless they had some big internet or power outage they can restore data flow much quicker than that.

I am reading "South" Earnest Shackleton's account of his Antarctic adventure. That is a good book for a "geeze don't feel sorry for yourself" message. His ship gets trapped in ice so they can't land and do the planned trek across Anarctica, then the ice destroys the ship so he must turn his energy into getting all the crew to civilization. Well I am not doing the book justice, but there are points where he realizes he should have made a different decision someways back on his journey. But he just notes this and goes on with recounting the steps taken from WHERE THEY ARE to hunt food, maintain morale and be ready to make for land that will be 200-300 miles away in some small boats that they had on board the ship for excursions and safety measure when the ice melts and they have open water. I am only 30% through the book so I guess they run into a lot more 'adventure' before they are done.

WooHoo, One thing is done.

I got the oil shares divided equally. I just received email with attachment of the recorded stipulation. Should be in good time for the Dec royalty check to be even for all of us

Now I just have to figure out how to handle the income taxes. I'm thinking its enough money the IRS will charge some interest and penalty if they don't get quarterly payments starting in 2011. Government is always pretty money grubbing.

My buzz over the oil business being completed was short lived as I went online to check on my drivers license renewal. I have to go in person because I used the online renewal last time and you can only use it every other time, and they have cut back on # of offices so I have to go the one in Boulder, last time I renewed in person I was able to do it in Brighton. -rats, I hate the DMV lines and when I had to get some driving records for insurance a few years ago the line in that Boulder office was horribly long. I'm sure the staff feel more overworked than ever with now having state budget shortfalls so they probably 'move' slower than ever. Human nature if one feels like 'the man' is trying to squeeze every last bit of effort out of you, then you dig in your heels. Not to mention that feeling overwhelmed makes it hard to get things done in general.

I cant decide if I should just file a form and pay estimated taxes quarterly or try to get money taken out at work. It is not a stable amount yet so perhaps I'll be better off just sending in a payment every quarter. Or actually in Jan, Apr, Jun and Sep. I don't know why they shift to Jun and Sep after starting with payments due 1/2 way through the month that follows the end of the quarter. But I guess, the Infernal Revenue System is not supposed to make sense to basic citizens.

So tired

Yuck, it sets a bad tone for the week when I stay up too late on monday and then start dragging. Well coffee mug is empty, think I'll shower before I finish up the horse chores. Must engage muscles and move my body from couch, NOW.

Well I made it to work and have not fallen asleep at my desk yet. I think I will have to try to leave early though and hopefully be more productive on Th and Fri. Good lord, this is boring even by my 'this blog is just a diary that happens to be on the web' standards. Oh well.

Let the scabbies begin

As I expected Grey's cut had a lot of scabbies this morning. In my attempt to pluck off really loose ones I made the wound bleed. Well good blood flow is not a BAD thing. I sprayed more aluminum stuff on it. Grey doesn't like it, I think the aerosol makes it feel COLD as my finger tip was cold where I got a lot of backspray from the can. I put wonder dust on the oozing blood as I figured the spray would not stick.

I am toying with asking the girl to come out and ride Lady Paloma and/or ride her for 'exhibition' to potential places for nominal pay. Trying to decide what would be a sum to offer and so on. I feel that I really have to assemble the paperwork I have and see if I can get a brand inspection before I can make any kind of plans.

C offered me a possible out of taking Lady to AL to her SIL's place! Very sweet offer but I would want to have the kids try Lady here and see if they get along with her and even if they loved her and Lady loved them I hate the thought of sending her so far away, poor mare has had quite a lot of travel and changing 'homes' in her life already. Hopefully someone much closer will love the idea of a smooth riding trail horse. I don't think she is endurance fast (IMO she could be an LD finisher, not sure about 50's but not a front runner) but she could sure keep up with most trail riding groups, and perhaps I don't have a good feel for how fast she is going.

Brrr

No snow here, but a cold raw wind blowing. How nice that the cold held off until after the 4 day weekend :)

Grey's cut looked pretty good, lots of sand under the bandage and with the cold I decided its a good time to see what happens with no more bandage so I sprayed some alumashield on it to hopefully have some barrier for germs and grit. I had thought I would do a dry bandage for a day or 2 but if sand is getting in there it would be counter productive to have a wrap to rub that sand against the wound and skin. Crossing fingers that things continue to heal. At least he hasn't been sore to walk on it since the first 2-3 days.

OMG, I have got to just be more careful to avoid known 'my button' pushers or avoid some places altogether. I was this || close to dragging something to a different board with some redacting to make situation more anonymous. I need to worry about my own life instead of seeking out a sympathetic ear for my thoughts about some bad situation all around and party A shares some blame and should not just be getting sympathy. For heavens sake I know how groups operate and the group is almost always sympathetic to the viewpoint of one of their own, why am I letting this fill me with angst? I would have said that I do not place any of that group on a pedestal now if I ever did; but perhaps I was lying to myself because I am sure having difficulties in just MMOB.

Rode Shade twice this weekend

Thats the highlight. I've been emailing myself to vent low thoughts that I needed to release but were too low for public view. I still can't bring myself to stay away from the place that leads me to such angst, don't ask me why. We are getting the edge of a snow storm, I didn't feed before dark so am now not bothering to rush at all but I need to get out within the half hour. The wind was coming up as I rode but it wasn't too cold yet and it was one of those times when riding in the wind was exhilarating rather than a negative.

Yesterday I rode Lady Paloma after my blog post. One definite thing: I do not desire to ride her myself. She is a sweet little horse, a bit uneasy when being worked but just seems to be expecting demands to GO GO GO and will relax a bit when I say we are just dinking but she does NOT do a flat walk for crap, always puts a bit of eggbeater footwork in after just several seconds of good walking - she'll keep the speed to walking levels and isn't sneaking up the pace like Cindy would do when she jigged but its not relaxing for me and dammit I want to be relaxing when the horse is just walking.

YAY - beautiful sunny weather

I have not checked freezer but I do not think we are cooking any big meal, there has been no mention of it. I rode Sadie on thursday. It was a bit cold so I grabbed her since she is at a 90% stuff on the ground stage. Since I am prone to over heat fairly easily it is really working out for me to have this super green stage during winter. I rode her for maybe 10 minutes, resisting getting greedy and asking her to trot. She was steering well, walking ok but not quite striding out with confidence. She thought about scooting when I dismounted but I checked her up with the inside rein like Jo showed me and she responded and stopped and then I got completely off and gave her atta girls. I think it may result in teaching Sadie to stop if I am falling off, that would be a bonus.

Friday I rode Shade and Ole got to come along and play in the prairie dog patch. We just went a few miles, I don't get very ambitious this time of year but it was fun. I would have liked to have an electric collar on Ole for the last bit of the ride; we had passed a guy riding with his dog. I was about to the spot where I put Ole's leash on to make sure he doesn't harass the one neighbor's wild rabbits in her pasture and yard when I met him so hopped off and put Ole's leash on a bit early, no big deal, walked Ole past the rabbit place driveway and hopped back on Shade to ride the last bit home. We were nearly home when Ole started hesitating --the guy and dog were coming back and about to the corner into the neighborhood road, I had to get behind Ole with Shade and then the cur went in the ditch and was heading back towards that corner so I asked Shade to hustle a bit and jumped off and grabbed Ole's leash. I sure would have liked to just be able to give him a jolt for ignoring me, but my general experience with electric devices, especially battery ones has so many failures that I hate to shell out money buying a new collar and I think buying new batteries for his old one is a waste.

Happy Thanksgiving

We may actually have a big meal sometime this weekend. Mom has called me twice asking if I needed anything from Stockyard Supply and then from Walmart, did we need dog or cat food. I prepared this year by buying a DiGiornos pizza at my weekly target run. Last year I bought a small turkey and a spiral ham, heated the ham over thanksgiving weekend and cooked the turkey around christmas, dad invited his buddy over. Turkey wasn't thawed yet that morning so I combined brining and thawing it. I would brine turkey for future roasting, it didn't go all dry like it sometimes does. This year I don't care what I eat this weekend, just looking forward to 4 days with no more stress than logging in to work to see if the automated stuff is running.

Thankful for list:

I am thankful for my sister, that her melanoma had not spread and that her breast cancer was caught early.
I am thankful for my brother and for his wife Margaret and her son S who make bro happy
I am thankful that my parents are still going, lord help me realize they are not youngsters and not everyone is spry until age 90.
I am thankful for my horses (you knew I was going to get there)
Thankful that Grey's cut seems to be healing and does not seem infected, nor painful to him. Lord just give me guidance and patience to pursue wraps as long as needed and then let it scab and look ugly while healing works underneath.
Thankful that Shade is over her cough and seems to feel lively and very thankful that she enjoys her job even though she doesn't really like 'the commute'
Thankful that Sadie is so level headed so far and seems to enjoy the idea of 'being worked'
Thankful that Cindy had good health for all the years she enjoyed and passed peacefully when I had her euthanized.
Thankful that Lady Paloma is getting along nicely with Sadie and does not have special needs. Lord please guide me in selecting her future. Is she meant to lead me to mentoring or something?

Grey update and good grief

I used triple antibiotic + cortizone cream on Grey's cut today. I am wondering why I did not start this a week ago, such is life, sometimes having too many tools leads to grabbing a wrong one a couple times before getting things correct.

It is tuesday before thanksgiving. One would think it was two days before christmas based on this office. People taking time off to do things with their kids that are having the entire week off school, taking off to extend the 4-day break into 5.5 days etc. I really should have gone to the talk at NOAA but I didn't feel like doing security theatre today after having forgot to respond to the original email.

Holy cow, I may need a tax consultant

The Nov. oil check is nearly twice as big as the october check was. Thank goodness I already did the equal shares split but it just didn't go through yet, lawyer is waiting on the return from sister, I didn't ask if she got that done yet, having a mastectomy today I'm sure she has been pretty distracted. I am going to send the siblings 1/4 each of what I received for Nov. With having just put previous 'extra' into savings I should be fine for taxes and then I can decide if I'll do any more divvying up or just not bother after the taxes are filed and I know how much the government will take. Thankfully I don't think my sibs are going to calculate every dollar it would have been since I have done the right thing and divided shares/future payouts equally since the royalties have already paid back the purchase price -- and aunt Julie was able to have the nice funeral she wanted last year and I think she'd be pleased to know her nieces and nephew are getting a nice inheritance out of the oil shares she hung on to through some fairly lean years for her.

grammar pet peeve

and I know --people in glass houses shouldn't throw rocks. But I do hate the misuse of reins vs reigns.

Reins --straps attached to a horse's bit to direct it. Also can be used as a verb --reining in excessive spending (if only Chris Christi had more company doing that!)

Reigns. Rules over. The monarchs reigned for several centuries, partisanship still reigns in american politics.

LOL

Mom " I stayed home and took care of CJ and the farm and cooked two meals so you could have FUN hunting, so the least you could do is give CJ his medicated grain since I'm sick"

riiiggghhhhtttt: Taking care of horses up there, riding just a bit and trying not to get chilled while sitting around waiting for elk to come past was FUN. Not to mention the joys of white knuckle driving home on slick roads. Sis and I didn't do a fun trail riding trip this year because dad was talking about doing the MaahDaahHey trail and then mom wanted that to definitely wait until she might be healthy enough to to along --yeah, like she was going to get healthy enough to commit to something that would keep her away from her boob tube for that long. We are talking about someone that watched European and sucky college football on gorgeous weather days instead of riding even before she had any health issues.

More on Grey

Too bad I'm not into the photo thing, having a set of pics would be useful for gauging progress, forwards or backwards. The povodone salve resulted in a lot of cellular fluid or what have you. Wound does seem to be closing on the end towards the frog. I think Grey is going to end up having some 'lovely' proud flesh lump in the end. I am forcing myself to stay with salve for a bit longer. Healing will be delayed if I try to force a scab while the body is still expelling crap from there. I may switch soon to mixing neosporin and cortizone cream to try to keep the flesh down and let skin form while I'm still scared to encourage scab formation.

typing one handed

I may have to abort this - no injuries just trying to drink coffee at same time. I am dreading Greys bandage change, my fingers got so cold yesterday they hurt, but the real dread is not knowing if things are helping. There is a patch of missing skin where I thought there was only a thin cut earlier. Overall the cut does look like it is healing. Not angry red, but getting some blood flow, flesh filling in the deep area in the middle of the cut and so on. I think I need to use a draining salve a bit longer before I encourage scabbing with wonder dust. I switched to povodone salve yesterday. It is too cold for saline and I think telfa pad and this salve will be easier on the skin too. What I don't like is the skin rub and generally feeling like the duct tape is keeping his skin and hoof moister than it should be but I think its still the lesser evil at this point, dang I wish I had just detoured around the stupid carcass.

I've been avoiding a blog, because I don't know if my fragile ego could handle it if life is still overwhelming them after I made a small gesture to help by paying an unexpected car repair bill. I've felt badly for the author and unable to do anything as she struggles with a life situation -and the car repair was just tip of the iceberg of her stresses. Hopefully god gives her help with other areas and she rebounds to being the super-capable woman I was following last year, or even if she feels like she is muddling along she'll feel like she will make it through the maze anyway.

Thank you Sadie (and Jo-trainer)

I just rode Sadie for the first time at home. Lets see, need to try the Wintec saddle because Shade's barefoot was wanting to tilt off to the side. Wear slicker soled boots so my foot doesn't stick when I abort getting on because the saddle is slipping towards me. Then when I tighten the cinch and try again it would be good if dirt bikes don't ride by right after I get centered in the saddle ....

But Sadie handled everything just as calmly as an old school marm. We walked around for a couple minutes after she was done watching the bikes go down the road. Then I got off, let her eat a bit of grain while I untacked --needed a vise grips to get my cinch undone -- never had a problem with Shade but the billets were not wanting to come loose another reason to see if the wintec will work.

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posted this a bit ago. MOM had to go and harsh my mood by whining "did anyone feed CJ his medicated grain yet, or do I HAVE to" Well if you cannot ask me nicely as the FAVOR that it is to do it then you will have to do it yourself. I am DONE taking on extra care for her and dad's horses just as a matter of course. I work full time and they don't even work part time.

TGIF

Except I have to get up tomorrow, hook up to my little trailer and take off at a somewhat early for me time - I should be rolling no later than 9 am. Yeah laugh, but I've been moving slow, especially in the mornings all week. I'm fetching two horses home. One is Paloma, the Paso Fino from Kansas. I feel badly that Barry's crusade to hurt the U.S. has hit the family that was leasing her so hard. Oh well we have enough hay I can feed her and perhaps I can find someone to come ride her occasionally since she is gaited. I'll have to carve out time to ride her a few times myself to assess what level experience she needs though.

I am actually excited to be fetching Sadie home --or I would be if I didn't feel so ass-dragging tired. I am looking forward to a little ride at the trainers to see how Ms Sadie feels and get input from the trainer. When I get those girls home I probably will not ride. I'll have to change Grey's bandage, the tape was somewhat in place yet this morning so I put an easy boot on and I won't try to mess with that before I go, I'm too slow in the mornings. Plus I'll have to get the girls set up with a water tank. I might take the one from AJ's pen since he shares the big tank. I probably will run the dogs with the car on saturday, must try to get through a car wash tonight, passenger window is so dirty I feel like I can barely see through it.

I got the mineral rights stuff divided up. Lawyer finally billed me, only $300.00, + $19.00 for filing fee in ND. I was worried they would pull a stunt like the rich OC person who posted that the DH's laywer/church friend way over-billed to tune of 5 figures after doing some work for them with no contract --and threatened to sue them when they didn't just pay the hyper inflated bill right away. I Hope the court gives that lawyer a fine instead of any settlement, but OC and especially her DH as she describes him seem quite snobby so I don't feel terribly badly for them like I would for just plain folks that a slimy excuse for a lawyer attempted to cheat in that way. Well I didn't expect the ND firm to try to bilk me, but I was nervous not knowing what it would cost and they had just done the work first rather than giving me an estimate and letting me authorize the work. I'm glad the bill was so reasonable.

friday night fun. As I check a few things to see about possibly launching jobs before leaving I find that there is limited space on the /pub disk. After perl jammer++ CF did rm -rf on /pub1/user he never removed the /pub/user area after the cp of all those directories to /pub1/user had finished and that is the critical disk that needed more space. I called the SA but he had a home repair situation so I had to call the CF and request him to do it --well I did say he could just give me the root password --but he didn't go for that. In the long run it is a good thing for me to not have any root access but tonight I would have felt safer doing things myself. Ah fun when co-workers have family stress.

The trainer emailed me and asked if I wanted to foster and/or adopt the 4.5 year old race horse rescue she has. Well at least I will be showing up with my excuse why I cant do it right now with Paloma. Last thing I would need is TWO young very green broke horses anyway. I like my horses spaced several years apart in age thank you very much.

its not even friday yet?

That sounds SO whiny, but I do feel a bit whiny. I am not getting up early after the time change but I am feeling tired at work well before the end of the day. Maybe I need to take super duper vitamins or get one of those fancy lamps but I'll probably adjust in a bit. Just going to feel blah for a few weeks. Too bad the holidays tend to feel like extra stresses to me rather than a pick me up to counter the shortening days. Just call me MS grinch LOL I am not a miss or mrs.

Grey's cut is probably healing ok. The duct tape is tearing off within 24 hours so I'll have do daily bandage changes until I either take a strap out of a size 1 boot and see if that can be kept on or I decide the cut is ready to scab over and help it along with wonder dust. I put a saline wrap on again today. The cut does seem to be healing at the edges but lots of 'plasma' or something in the center yet. However unless I buy some maxi or mini pads tonight I am out of absorbent materials, plus I have to get going earlier on saturday to get Paloma picked up and then proceed to Larkspur to get Sadie before the trainer has her birthday party to run at 1 pm. Hmm, I think I need to fix up an easy boot tomorrow regardless of whether I go with dry or wet dressing for the bandage.

Grey's cut today

His cut is on the inside heel bulb of his LH foot. The outside heel bulb looked bruised today so I left the easyboot off after I had the new saline pad & wrap on. I hope the duct tape will hold up without the boot, but I couldn't be having the treatment cause worse problems. The cut itself does not look horrible and Grey is walking better. I syringed his tucoprim into him. I was not ready to even risk 1/2 dose on whether he might eat it with a more molasses sweet feed instead of his usual grain.


Mom announced last night that they want to go up to ND for two weeks starting Nov 29. Will this work for me?

Work for me how? Yes I can cover farm chores while they are gone. No I wont blow two weeks of precious vacation doing this. One week tops is what I would be willing to do. Sis has surgery Nov 23. Mom is thinking this will work good for her still being off work and recuperating. How can I frame to mom that I think sis will NOT WANT to be a hostess so soon? So mom and dad better just get a motel unless they are prepared to be helping sis out with things, not be expecting to be entertained in any way, including visiting or help with the getting the football game they want going etc etc --- and for god sakes not creating a mess that sis will have to clean up eventually. I'm not even sure how much buffering I can do if I go along for first part of trip, sis doesn't need to listen to rest of family squabbling either.

missed it by this much

I was all set to wrap up stupid mineral rights stuff tonight but found I did not have check blanks. I thought I had grabbed a box and put in my purse in case I had to write a check for something during the hunting trip. Oh well, now I must write a check tonight.

I must also make some fudge for my SA sailor. Gulp I believe its been over 3 weeks since any letter or anything. I cant decide if I need to just not get a new soldier adoptee when this one's deployment is finished or if it will be easier if I can believe that chips and jerky will be much welcomed treats with a field soldier as opposed to someone on a ship whose list had no food items on it. Its always hard going through letter writing motions when I feel like my letters are so boring to them.

Mom just called and wants a rent check. Now I must figure out what is the last month I paid. So much fun not having a set due date or receipts, just my carbons of my checks. Yeah I should keep better track of my spending in general but "I should" do a whole lot of things that I dont.

Blargh, I am not messing with the KP survey tonight. I may well pitch it. If I haven't canceled my plan with them or sent a complaint I am satisfied enough. I hate companies asking me to take surveys; I waste my time in multiple ways but I resent being asked to give it up taking a dumb old survey.

I used a saline pad on Grey Moun's cut today

I have been worried about infection starting because he seems so tender with it, and the location with cut extending to his frog is just horrible for getting contaminants in there. So I changed his wrap today and put a surgical pad soaked with saline next to the owie. I may change wraps again tomorrow and then every 2 days for a bit. Works better with my schedule and this first pad is probably full of wonder dust from the edges of the cut and so on. He ate some of his feed from yesterday but did not finish it so I syringed him a dose of tucoprim. I may have to stop by the vet clinic tomorrow or thursday and get some more since both Grey and CJ are getting it right now. I should also buy another bunch of vet wrap or flexus bandage wrap as I'm using nearly a whole roll every time I change the wrap. It is raining in Boulder. Usually I hope for us to get some rain at home too but I'd rather it stay dryer with this cut. Oh well whatever will happen will happen.

OH CARP!

I feel so terribly responsible. I told the perl genius with root permission that we needed more disk space on /pub. I had previously asked folks to move /pub/user/folk files to the /pub1/user area. Conceited bastard did not follow my suggestion of how to copy files to /pub1/pub/user which would have for sure preserved them. Instead he used some fancy cp -i -a /pub/user to /pub1/user.

-i should have asked for interaction before overwriting and -a should preserve files but golly gee whiz. the empty /pub/user/niceguy area has wiped out all his files on /pub1/user/niceguy.

Its not really me that did this; but because I said we needed space and just voiced things and the fancy pants root permission guy did things not quite the way I said the files are gone. DAM DAM DAM!

Addendum --example of a liberals mindset. repetition because I am doing a copy/paste from posting on a bb.


Late yesterday afternoon the perl/database guru who has root permission along with the sys admin was in a hurry to get files moved over to a working area. I announced we were out of space on the raid where the data would go and suggested he copy /pub/user/people directories to the other raid (/pub1/user/people) since not everyone had moved files over as I asked them to do before I went on vacation.

Instead he did a rm -rf of /pub1/user and then started copying /pub/user over to that raid.

Today's response from him. Well we cannot back that up as a system admin level. People know they have to use mass store for secure backups and /pub is subject to user (or root errors)

Yeah -- people also know that raid disk arrays are fairly resistant to disk crash losses of data and pushing files to mass store takes time. But it is our (I am one of the people that had been using the raid with more space ) fault that the data is gone. He cannot even feel responsible and apologize for screwing up.

This is exactly how Rush is always describing leftists. They are not capable of even admitting to themselves that they were wrong, it is always someone else's or fates fault. Still interesting to see it in action in a real life scenario vs. the more abstracted public policy stuff.

>>>Oh WOW>>>> it is 3:40 the day after he removed all these directories and there is still no email about it>>>
Perhaps he called people and told them directly or emailed them directly but I am rather surprised that there is not an email with possible remedies for missing data, and I would be included in that list since I also had a data area removed. How strange; does he and the sys admin think that ignoring this will make the problem recede?

>>>As he walks out the door he says "sorry about your data" Well what about all the other data? I am not going to inform everyone that I think may have had a data loss. What would I write 'Oh sorry but "not me" erased your data? and I dont know if he or sys admin will even try to do a restoration' Umm I am not gifted in PC speaking/writing at the best of times, I'm pretty sure anything I would write would come off 90% or more as finger pointing.

Grey Moun casualty on hunting trip

Hopefully not a serious casualty. Perhaps I should have Dr Mike out. It does not feel like there is anything to be done by the veterinarian at this point but I am not sure what I am dealing with. Grey did not seem real sore on saturday when he did it but he was a bugger today when I changed the bandage. Oh well, for now I am going with wrapping it for now and see what things look like after a few every other day wrap changes. I don't like that the cut goes into his frog/back of his hoof area. He would not eat his tucoprim this morning so I gave him a penicillin jab, which he stood for with only a shoulder twitch.

Perhaps he was sensing my mood. I was not happy with getting my nose jabbed by his hock when I was trying to clean out the cut and my general feeling of not knowing just what to do for this injury. I can deal with it taking months for Grey to heal up; but I don't know if I can deal with the possibility of not healing up at all right now.

I guess I should have stated that Grey was injured on saturday when I STUPIDLY tried to get him to go past Vern's elk carcass instead of just going around thru the brush and Grey got into the fence on the other side of the elk. I KNEW better than to try to push it and went around on thursday but I had to be dumb on saturday. Poor Grey, paying for my dumb mistake.

survived the retreat I think

they didn't have karioke (how is that spelled then.) Threats of having it next year or something to increase participation in the entertainment. PUHLEASE NO! --it was not bad this year with just a few people. I ducked out for a beer at the start of the 'performance' I knew would not be much fun. Then I sat on the floor for their 2nd guitar selection so I could make faces w/o being seen :P Is classical guitar just 80% melancholy stuff? Someone else was roped into playing and it was like that too. Then good singer with more rock guitar stuff but he was choosing ballad lyrics too. Depressed that the R's flipped 60 seats and control the House? I was still kind of pissed from the NOAA guy saying the lame duck congress might pass a much belated budget (with spin that the lame dems would be saving NOAA and NSF from the GOP vs the truth that Pelosi and the rest of the marxist D's unconstitutionally passed HCtakvoer (I refuse to call it reform) to cripple the economy instead of passing a budget as they are tasked to do by the constitution. So if they had had karioki I might have queued up Johnny Paycheck IIRC. I swear if Barry gets re-elected and those fools crow about it I might do exactly that in 2-3 years.

Todays fun was listening to control freak data expert whine that we cannot put data on mass store or ldm so more people can easily get to it without the hassle of our web interface and limited bandwidth. BULL PUCKY we can't do it, he has not been ready to relinquish any control. I hope user demand forces him to do it. He is the biggest, dumbest liberal in the bunch too. I mean even other most liberals condemned OBL after 9-11; but CF literally told me "I'm sure OBL had no idea so many people would actually be killed"

I am just so thankful that I will be on vacation now for about 10 days with no internet and no TV. Dumbass infighting about how 'tea party' people cost the R's seats better not show up either. again PUH-LEASE. Before the tea party the GOP might have just barely pulled out 40 house seats to take that branch just because the dems have been so nasty to the country but it was the tea party that kept the GOP inline to barely take part in the HCT (thanks Snowe or Collins for letting it out of committee before Brown could be elected) and it was people's feeling that the tea party can reform the GOP and actually make them shrink this bloated gubermint that flipped 60 house and 6 senate seats from D to R.

got rid of the fuel tank, getting a generator

I finally called the guy back that was interested in my fuel tank. He gave me $150 for it delivered to him. I think I paid $150 for it and picked it up myself but still, hardly any loss on it (except the new cap I bought that didn't help with the sloshing) and its GONE. WooHooo, I love CL, I got rid of my stair stepper, found Lady/Paloma a home for a couple years, the wood chipper I bought via CL was a bust but at least with reselling it on CL it was NOT taking up space forever after I bought it and it didn't work out, that was a $ hit but chalk up to learning experience.

This morning I overheard dad calling to see about renting a generator. Way $$ so I told him we should just buy one, then I proceeded to do a quick search on CL and dad will pick up a honda 2500 watt model tomorrow on his way to Meeker --hopefully. With luck it will be a generator I am happy with, I have debated getting myself one and had been watching CL somewhat but wasn't sure what I wanted. With dad breaking his generator I pulled the trigger. Hopefully this Honda works out for me but I feel like if it doesn't I'll resell it and have a better idea what I really want.

Ugh, this stupid state! --better now but still stupid

wednesday ** Bennett won it**** rats rats rats. no senate race in 2012 and I believe Udall is a better politician so the state will probably have 2 liberal senators for the next 6 years. --especially if we get a good conservative presidential candidate who wins in 2012 ( or even a medium campaigner 'moderate' republican will probably appeal to the nation in 2012 ---please don't be wishful thinking, and please let us have a truly fiscal conservative who will have some national security sense. Still I had better prepare 'bunker' in WY. The entitlements and entitlement mentality are not just going to gently release their death grip on the country.


Well at least its not Bennett ahead by 5% but the senate race is too close to call at 1 AM on Nov 3. Buck leads by less than 7K votes still nearly 1K precincts not reporting yet and some are in liberal urban (ie DUMB areas)

R's do win Sec of state race, AG, and state treasurer -yay. 2 districts swing from D to R here for U.S. house. (3 remain blue, we should have been able to flip one of those, need a really great candidate in 2012)

***below in my rant at 9 pm.

Wisconsin came to senses but CO is going to elect Bennett --unless the early results are heavily urban weighted, but 5%. I think the scare the women crap must have worked enough. This is as much 'thumb in your eye tea party rebels' for not choosing the nice safe establishment Norton person as the 25 million Soros et al poured into the state IMO and I am not happy about it.

But then the state is so STUPID they are voting down amendment 63 to block Colorado from enforcing any Obama care provisions so far. Fucking bunch of socialist whiners much?!


Frazier is loosing to Perlmutter too. and it looks like we will lose Sec of state as well as Hickenlooper is governor. --he is over 10% ahead. Will the state legislature get swung back to R at least? Arghhh!!! Caring about elections sucks.


On a happier note several congressional races are going GOP. Nanzi WILL lose her gavel and with some luck there will be a bigger flip than in 1994. Just no celebration for me stuck in an idiot state until I retire or unless start my own business --could I overcome my laziness and do it?

Fond old memories and new horizons

Cindy and me over 20 years ago. She didn't get docked for jumping this log because I leaned forward and grabbed the lead rope around her neck to make sure I stayed on; I'm using an english saddle so the control judge called it a cued jump. LOL, it was my first time trying distance riding and the 2 quart canteen I had bought and was carrying was coming loose from its strap and I was hugging it with my offside arm and I leaned forward and grabbed the rope cuz Cindy was cruising to catch the horse in front of her and I just knew she was going to jump that log so she could gain a bit of ground :)

I found out later that horses would often get points docked in NATRC for hopping instead of stepping over or across things --Cindy loved to jump and always jumped safely so tried AERC endurance instead and found that it was a much better fit for my personality. Cindy was not really an endurance horse, she didn't switch off and relax and eat at the vet checks. She was great in the 25 mile rides because she wouldn't run out of fuel that quick and she had awesome recoveries. I wonder if she is all racing in the rainbow meadows or is showing off her 'dance moves' too. Lord that mare could move in fantastic ways.



Here is Sadie at the trainers yesterday. I think she is going to be a fun endurance horse, I think she may prove a bit hardier than Shade and will probably be hard to distract from eating. Hopefully that is going to be really true and not part wishful thinking.

good grief --6 mice since 8:30 am

Its about 11:30 am now. This is with 4 traps. One trap got 2 more mice while I was getting the horses grained. Yes, I'm slow, especially slow lately mixing various medications in the grain, but I guess that is a prime eating spot. So today its a good thing I am not a photo blogger. One mouse had just got its leg caught :( I heard him squeak right after he was caught so he was not trapped and scared for long at all before I whacked him with a chunk of board and gave him the desired swift end. I moved that trap a bit so hopefully it won't get any more mice just by the leg.

Good old Walmart had the re-useable spring traps by Victor. I had looked at ACE hardware last week and they only had trap and toss models. That would not have been cost effective so I would have had to just set out poison instead.

Later I will put up a pic or 2 of Sadie. I visited at the trainers yesterday and got to see Sadie being worked. I posted pics to a board, doing my part to give it some nice topics and keep it going.

4 -no it was only 3 more mice with broken necks when I rode Grey. I just left them because I wanted to give Grey an adequan shot. Getting his joints lubed up for the west slope trip. Ole stalled 200 yards down the road so I turned around, tied him to his trap, and rode Grey a bit in the paddock.

I want to give Shade a monthly maintenance adequan shot also. She has not had any since her labor day weekend ride actually. Well she has been on sick leave and vacation also so I don't think she really missed it but I do want to keep her lubed up as well as I can. I'd love for her to get to 3000 miles which is a long shot since she only has 1400 now and is starting to have this arthritis but I really really want her to have 2 more good years before I start backing her way off and riding Sadie somewhat seriously. That would put Sadie just 6 years old so hopefully Shade will have a 3rd season where she is primary but I am riding Sadie on 2nd days of 2 day rides etc.

life goes on of course

I rode Grey Moun today. He was not as fresh as on sunday but seemed to feel pretty good. I shorted CJ on hay again. Yesterday I shorted everybody by not giving 2nd flakes of hay as I normally do. They all survived. I gave CJ more than 1/2 his usual so I'm sure he didn't suffer waiting for dad to hay this evening. Oh I am late posting here I think. CJ has a respiratory bug AND pigeon fever -aka dryland distemper. Flies spread it in places where the soil is pretty dry.

Had a Sadie report yesterday from the trainer. "SUPER SADIE!!! What a girl! She tacked with a big western saddle, lunged without a buck. Took to me banging the fenders on her sides good. Stood by the mounting block for me to stand above her and then lay on her back-good. Is taking her head side to side nicely. She also got a taste of wearing her molasses bit and some food for keeping it on.

Great day! You may come Saturday if you like. I am done with kids by 1pm."

I must remember to ensure that my camera has a memory card and maybe pack extra batteries for it. I think I will just drive my car down. With CJ being sick I don't want to be bringing in new germs. Well I'll decide for sure only on saturday.

Vaya con Dios, my fire breathing dragon

You are probably already challenging other horses to a race in the meadow across the rainbow bridge, knowing your love of seeing how hard you could run. I'll miss you even though you've been mostly on my back burner these last several years. You did a great job with Sadie as her weanling mentor, I believe you taught her to be almost as bold and brave as you were. She had brave genes from Szybki but she needed a role model cuz momma Shak was distrustful and timid. I have to scan the pic of you jumping the log on my/our first CTR. You look like a polished jumper, no one can tell from the pic that I am hugging the 2-qt round canteen whose strap was failing in my off arm and grabbing the lead around your neck just to make sure I stick with you as you zoom over the log cuz you wanted to hurry up and catch the horse in front and I figured it would be futile to fight you on that :)

great, more tears.

I could have done without mom offering to stay home from hunting and do chores if I am on the fence about putting Cindy down. I know she can't help being a clingy sentimental sap; but I made the decision, it was NOT easy but I do feel it is right. It is right for me because I don't feel like I am robbing the horse of precious days, I feel that I am ensuring she doesn't end up enduring any hours of agony. I have given quite a bit of bute and used lots of DMSO trying to make sure Cindy has good last days, because I'd hate to have a painful ending of life color her memory of life with me. I do believe animals have some memory of their life after they die.

ALSO, sister only had her breast biopsy today, not a week ago like originally planned and I had been wondering why I had not heard about any results yet. They took tissue from both breasts. Sis is sore and she and B are staying in Bismarck overnight; a wise decision, especially since weather is crappy up there. I haven't been sure how much I should worry. I had to have a biopsy years ago when I was in college and it was nothing so I've been thinking this will prove to be benign but it is not a sure thing. Darn it, N already had to deal with a Melanoma, and having lymph nodes removed from her neck as a precaution in case the cancer cells had spread, she should have good health now, but life doesn't go along making things fair.

Oh crap

there is a mini-review tomorrow morning. I did not register it was vet day when it was announced via email thursday. I am losing all kinds of brownie points lately, forgetting conflicting appointments and not notifying the bosses right away. Sadly I do not care much either.

CRAP AGAIN: "As part of Nov. 5 retreat evening entertainment... having a small performance/open mike program" Some co-workers are quite talented and most also understand playing something light and entertaining that is WELL WITHIN their talents. But it only takes being stuck having to politely listen to ONE that does not follow those principles to ruin a 1/2 hour or more not just their actual tortured 'recital' performance period for me. Plus I don't have ANY talent so I can't participate, just have to clap enthusiastically for the good ones and politely for any snot who is just imposing on everyone's time.

This is going to be a bad week

I thought I was at peace with having Cindy euthanized. Well I wouldn't say I am troubled about the decision but I am grieving. Part of this is coming out as extreme irritation with liberals, I never considered I might have the extra strain of thinking liberals are going to fall for Bennetts scare the women tactics --he has no reason to vote for him, all he has is to try to scare the women that Buck would outlaw 'the pill' and is a sexist. Righttttt, Bennett voted for the bill whose purpose is to ruin our health system so we end up with a NIH type nightmare like england where young women have to go through some snooty government clerk if they need birth control or an abortion and older women who need fertility treatments to conceive will have to convince some government agency that it should spend the extra $$ for that to happen but a pro-life conservative is going to magically be able to undo a decision from the supreme court?
What gets me is not that the Dem's are resorting to this but that it seems to be working. Am I so atypical? Are most women
completely ignorant of how the law works and what that effing health care reform monstrosity will mean if it is not repealed?

update:
** Rush did warn today that the MFM is going to push some hair pulling themes this week.
1) momentum is shifting to the dem(s)
2) the R's are going to cave & work with Barry so why bother voting this year
3) the R's are going to impeach Barry and pull the rug out from under SS, etc if they win -so if you fear the upheaval vote lib
4) Polling shows/showed the R's should pick up at least 52 house seats (1994 turnover level) or various analysts will be and have been saying turnover might be lots higher so even if you can take control of the house (39 seat pickup --need a few more for RINOs) and block Barry from any more legislation to destroy the country the R's should have been able to pick up more seats so the tea party is a failure &/or its hopeless for the tea party to try to reform the GOP and they have to go 3rd party --which would give Dems a few more years to sack and loot the country during transition.

I had been thinking the R's need to get to at least 50 in the senate so the D's don't change rules for fillibusters. But actually since the R's will take the house we will not need any R senate fillibusters and the D's certainly aren't going to make it harder for themselves to block conservative bills coming from the house. I don't think the R's will risk a 2012 shift back to D's and go 'nuclear option' on senate rules if THEY get over 50 seats and they could not get to 60 seats even if they flipped 100% of the D seats which was NOT ever going to happen; so I think we will have 2 years of blocking the marxists from passing more bills to kill the country but probably not able to undo much unless some of the dems in congress choose staying in office over toeing/towing the party line. --That COULD well happen if the tea party movement shows its strength over the next year or so.

The times are going to remain 'interesting, in the chinese curse way' for at least another 2 years. Probably for at least the next decade as conservatives wrestle with trying to cut government down to a sustainable size w/o scaring voters into a stampede to the false security + class envy the liberals will be pushing hard. Oh well, I think I shall try to get a barn/garage building put up in WY and work on making it possible to live there --wood stove, kerosene garage heater, ..... well set up for intermittent usage ........

Happier weekend stuff

I rode Razz saturday, the dogs were both PUSHING that they WOULD go along. So I went Pbbtttt and just rode in the paddock, Razz felt like he might be a bit ouchy last time I rode him out so staying in the soft paddock was good anyway. OMG I got the nicest jog from Razz. It made me understand how WP on a really good horse could actually be fun --minus all the dressing up, including the right amount of bling on the tack anyway.

This morning I took the dogs for a run with the car. Than this afternoon I rode Grey Moun 4 miles, Ole got to tag along, Mia was acting hyped up but she went and laid down well away from the gate so I didn't have to mess with tying her or putting her in the house or anything. Grey was full of beans. We cantered quite a bit and did a flat out gallup up the little sand hill. I think Grey is liking being completely retired from endurance but still needed for this trail-riding hunting trip. That sure works for me so I hope I'm reading him correctly.

I was chilled and had no ambition after riding Grey, but did get in a short short ride on Shade in the arena before I fed hay for the night. She had one cough, after cantering a bit but just that one time. I trotted and cantered the other direction to make sure she wasn't going to go into coughing fits and then asked her to back and played around with turning on the hind-end before quitting. I wasn't asking her to spin, but I got some nice feeling of moving her front end around the hind end while probably stepping in a small circle with her hind feet.

venting -lying dems and stupid people who believe lies

Doesn't help that my own mother is one of the swallowers of lies. I hate the marxists, they will lie, cheat, and steal to get into office so they can use the force of government coercion to get their way. But its the lying that is getting to me tonight, the dirty, hypocritical lying and the fact that so many gullible fools will swallow that BS.

Got my glasses fixed and it cured my headaches

Wednesday night I was playing around holding a hand over each eye and thought my cataract might have gotten worse as one side was really blurry, then when I went to brush my teeth before bed I noticed my glasses were really uneven, drooping on the left side. Ahh ha, I have varilux bifocal lenses so I was looking through the distance portion for close reading on the left eye and vice versa. I stopped at kaiser thursday morning and had them fix/adjust my glasses so they sit normally and no more tightness in the back of my head and neck developed. I may have been tipping my head to try to equalize the lenses + I suppose I also had brain strain of compensating for the left eye just seeing fuzz instead of normal vision.

I finally had an email from Sadie's trainer last night too. *I* still have not remembered to call her in the evenings nor just called earlier which she said if she didn't have signal or was busy with a horse she just returns calls. She is probably more of a phone person so I should get over my dislike of calling and giver her a check in call more often. She emailed again this morning. The 'kid' has a snotty nose but trainer didn't think it was serious. I told her I would fetch Sadie if she decided Sadie was contagious and it was a strain to keep her quarantined from the rest of the horses but I wasn't worried about Sadie having a little allergy type snot.

Sigh

I have been just craving some horse 'talk' lately. The forums I have somewhat followed for years are so very quiet lately and half the remaining posters on the one tend to drive me crazy.

I went back to COTH and lurked some and even posted 1x and I am reminded why I didn't use my login for 3 or 4 years. Very snobby and cliquey feel to it. I wasn't batted down and didn't have a primary post but just feels like a lot of holier than thou on the general (farm and off course) boards and as I remembered their endurance/trail riding section feels like a pretty tight knit group of east coasters. I haven't poked my nose in the dressage, hunting .... boards since I'm not doing those things.

I've been lurking on Texas horse enthusiasts occasionally. Not sure if there is more volume; but since I don't check it real often it feels like a bit more and I like most of what I read there. But I'm 2 states away, hardly makes any kind of sense to try to actually join and I might find if I did that they are not so warm and friendly with outsiders who want to join. As a lurker it feels like a friendly place with some (un?)common sense vs 'tree hugger' types who happen to have the horse bug.

I don't want to and will actively avoid joining groups and causes let alone the games on FB.

the endurance yahoo group --still too few topics and a small group of posters spouting off with 5-10 posts with their same tired opinions on recycled hot topics and 2-4 posts on random topics. I care less what xyz and fgh have to say. I haven't ventured to ridecamp but other than a bigger group of people so perhaps some newbies and more chances to learn something new in response to a question I wouldn't have asked I'm sure it has the same problems as the yahoo group.

Partly I have changed, 2008-2009 made me think about politics and my views on how societies and governments can work vs failing and now I have no patience for people who don't share my 'less is more' when it comes to government views. So where before I just thought, well if they are committed to horses, including learning good horsemanship so they can care for them I have quite a bit in common with them. Now if they think government should attempt to 'spread the wealth around' for any reason, whether personal avarice or thinking themselves elite and that the masses cant succeed w/o gub'mint help I strongly feel that they are basically simpletons and I don't want to waste my time 'with' them.

LOL!

I just saw this on CL --farm and garden section but still made me giggle

2 yr old free to a good home. - (CO.)
post was already deleted so I don't know what was being offered free .

personal whine session

UPDATE. about 2 hours later. The drugs have kicked in YAY.

I feel like I have a tension headache that is not instantly retreating after taking naproxen + my stomach is whining even after having some hot cereal. I live in the 21st century and I sweat some things I have little to no control over, but I am not aware of stressing about anything extra today and I hardly ever get tension headaches. Only sinus headaches and sometimes ' haven't had enough caffeine today' headaches and I know how to deal with them, and my stomach is usually pretty well cast iron unless I try to take ibuprofen on an empty stomach. I've never had to worry about eating with the naproxen stuff.

I don't like having physical symptoms of stress, especially when I don't know what it is that I need to ' let go and let god'. or even if I what I need to do is take some sort of action about a situation instead of just feeling like a leaf caught in a current. I just have lots of little stresses, no one big thing as far as I can tell.

OK I guess that is enough self pity rambling.

fill in --Sadie is at a trainers

oh yeah I was going to wait and copy/paste from the forum post I did about it. On the board that the IP nazi blocked my work IP# at so I cant do it until I get home. Well off to see if I have email from the trainer or I have to contact her to get news.

I hauled Sadie to a trainer saturday. I had never got around to hauling her anywhere so she got thrown into the deep end. Practiced loading a bit and fed her her feed one morning standing in the trailer then today I too Grey Moun along to model that the trailer is just another place to stand and eat hay and took her down the interstate about 1.5 hours to the trainer.

The only glitch is she did not want to back out of the trailer which she had been doing well in practice. Well I was using the stock trailer so no biggie I let her turn around and she was fine to come out then. I'm using an endurance rider that also does training. I had thought I might use trailpal's trainer K but when trailpal moved to DC I didn't want to send my 'baby' over 4 hours away. I have a good feeling that Sadie is in good hands. Grey got to stretch his legs and then go in the adjacent stall/run for a drink if wanted and he offered to stay too, much nicer digs than our sand hill with 3-sided shed.

A canter is the cure for every evil

I love that quote from Benjamin Disraeli almost as much as I love getting a canter on Shade. I can hardly wait to see if she can maintain clear lungs when I stop the tri-hist granules. Only went a couple miles, mostly walking but it felt GOOD. Ole was so happy to go that he barely minded the sand burrs which are still pretty thick. Mia wanted to come but she has the run of the place all night so I didn't feel bad making her stay home. She knows burrs are thick heading east so she always zooms west and forces me to ride that way if I let her 'join' me. Since she is so bull-headed and I have to go her direction and then turn around however quickly she decided she has had enough yada yada I have to be in a rare very accommodating mood to take her along when I'm riding anymore. I finished my last book of a trio of a fantasy series by Terry Goodkind I had bought. WooHoo now I have something I can send to my sailer through Soldiers Angels. OTOH, Blarghh I forgot to grab them today so I wont get anything out until tomorrow.

Destined to have responsibility for 4 horses?

I may be getting Lady (Paloma to her current owners) back. I really have no more desire to have a PasoFino now then I did when I bought her from my friends mom to resale. Hopefully she will find another home or the P's will be able to take her back. DAMN this recession. I hate the stupid liberals that have brought this about. HATE THEM.

I killed a mouse today

It was in my feed barrel -I have one that doesn't have a cover, a teeny little mouse. I tossed a lead rope in for it to just be able to run out but it wasn't leaving and I wanted to feed already and get to work after having farrier out so I started whacking at it with the knotted end of the heavy lead rope and once it was stunned or dead I scooped it out with the plastic scoop and then stomped its head to make sure it was not dying slowly. I really really need to get with it and set several traps in the feed room and get that population down, every time I'm in there I see and hear the mice running around. I don't mind a couple cleaning up the feed I spill but they are getting into the good feed and I am way over due to thin the #'s down. I kept hoping a bullsnake would move in this summer, we used to have one that hung around but I haven't seen one around there these last two years so I'll just have to trap and toss for my rodent control.

Another nudge that yes I was/am correct and it is time for Cindy to cross the rainbow bridge. I had L trim her front feet. Cindy was uncomfortable standing on the Left hind to have the left front foot trimmed. Right front was not bad, since she could just balance with the bad hock leg. If I weren't so stupid I would have given Cindy bute 1st thing this morning before L came but I didn't think to do it. I probably should have just skipped having her trimmed at all but I was thinking I didn't want to have extra stress on tendons since I think Cindy has DSDL -well not really the full blown stuff from a bit of quick internet reading but I think her tendons and ligaments have lost elasticity with age and will tear easily.

If it were just arthritis she is having enough good days with bute and is keeping weight on yada yada that I would just do a long term bute regimen like we did with Duke getting 1 bute tab 3x/week. But I've had a strong, foreboding in my gut that Cindy will suffer a nasty 'breakdown' tendon bow type injury this winter if I try to cling and keep her here; I've had regrets for waiting too long after just a bit of "oh is it really time yet" whining from the parents for a couple of pets and I wont go through that with Cindy. Especially when I don't trust the parents or someone doing chores to make a quick call if I was gone. Thats why I scheduled for end of october. I'll be gone on the hunting trip with dad and N for 10 days in early November.

skipped Shades tri-hist yesterday --coughing today

Yesterday it was raining so I just fed Shade and Grey Moun together and skipped the anti-histamine. I thought perhaps she was good to go without anymore since she was cough free on monday. I guess she needs to finish up the two weeks. Oh well its not like skipping a dose of antibiotics and letting the germs recharge, but with trying to settle reactive airways it probably would be better to keep them soothed all the time. I sure hope Shade will clear up and be ready to ride next season. Sometimes the no drugs of any kind rule in endurance sucks although I mostly agree with it. We are riding so many hours that slight side effects could lead to real problems even when the drug is not a performance enhancer or pain killer.

Rode Grey in the arena today. Ole and Mia both thought I should go down the road with them. Too bad, I am in zone of ignoring their whims to do just what I want with the horses for a while. Grey did well, he was getting bored, I was feeling things in my right hip so we didn't ride for long. I am still struggling a bit with Cindy, I feel like my friend D is the only one I know who really understands not waiting until the horse is completely miserable to euthanize but she does not understand being a wussy and having the vet do it with chemicals since she has more starch than me and has euthed her own horses. I hope I would cowboy up in an emergency, I think I would force myself but I can't do it just on possibility of cleaner death, there is the probability I would be shaking and would not shoot straight enough even though its point blank. Well its my personal decision and being able to get validation if I shared it would not be all that much comfort anyways.

Using the little arena

I tend to hate flat work and especially riding in small areas where I have to focus if doing any canter work. But since Shade and then Sadie seemed to get 'colds' in september about the time I had hoped to ship Sadie off to be started I did mess with her a bit myself. Mostly worked on trailer loading --she will go in the (stock) trailer now and backs out. Nice to have a horse that will back out of the trailer so I'm going to try to maintain that. I did put the surcingle on her a couple of times and put Shades sidepull on her and then longed her with the reins tied to the surcingle rings. I don't know if I'll try that with a bit or not.

Rode Grey Moun in the arena saturday and Shade this morning. Grey dropped his head SO nicely for me. I was using Shades little S hack on him. Hmmm I guess the curb action makes him round and drop his poll more readily. Too bad I never tried that when I was riding him more and struggling with trying to get him to round. It rained yesterday so no irritating dust but Shade did not cough ONCE when I rode her this morning. Happy dance.

Its been such a hassle to ride out lately. Ole wants to come but the sand burrs are so thick heading east. But I don't want to head west because I don't trust Ole to stay out of the neighborhood. So I think I may mainly do flat work rather than going down the road until the sand burrs die off for the winter.

I started tying Ole to a horse shoe from the game and he is getting the hang of dragging it to where he wants to be so its less likely that I will try to put up an overhead zip line for him.

OK God/Cindy thank you for confirming its time

Cindy was back to I'll wait by the hay feeder today so I gave her bute again. I may end up going 2-3 days on, 1 day off these next 2.5 weeks. Skipped thursday and she still seemed good on friday when she got dosed again but she is taking it easy again today. Seems off from what I expect, bute is fairly fast acting. It is not a real long time so I could maybe not skip any days but I don't want her to have a painful ulcer in her final days either. I hope Grey doesn't miss her too much. He has been more buddy with Shade due to them traveling together until I retired him and them being in the same paddock so I don't think he'll pine too hard. Shade will be pleased in about 1 week when I send Sadie off to training. She thinks the hungry youngster is pesty. But she'll appreciate Sadie more when Sadie starts sharing hauling my fat butt duties I think.

Nothing is ever easy

The blasted bute finally kicked in or something and Cindy seems to be feeling better the last couple days. But I'm not canceling the appointment to have her put down. I've had a knot in my gut about her having a slip on ice and ending up with a painful ruptured tendon and ignoring those gut feelings usually leads to regrets. Even if we have a mild winter I will not beat myself up (much) about sending her across the bridge still feeling good. Heck I was bumming through wednesday that I had already left it too long when she didn't want to move much even after getting the first few doses of bute. I think I'll let myself off the hook for doing any election volunteering. I want to spend some time letting Cindy graze in the yard, where there is a tiny bit of grass, work with Sadie a bit and should ride too.

Dad found the missing tri-hist.

It was left sitting on Dr Mikes truck bumper and bounced off into the road. Still 1/2 the container left and with settling it was probably no more than 2/3 full to start. Should be plenty for giving to Shade for 2 weeks.

I must start making a list of trailer stuff and general christmas.
Trailer. Electric jack, trailer floorboard (?) that I lost.
cupboard over driver side window.
charge controller/solar panel permanently mounted ? (not sure its worthwhile)
powerpoint plug in?
air mattress that is SUV sized or something.
The one in there bumps the valve release on the window and deflates too easy.

pickup --step for the box. --not replace super long running boards cuz they cost too much
and it has running boards, just needs something more to climb into the box being extended cab.


general: New curtain for bedroom, bedspread --maybe a horse theme one.

How can a quart plastic jar hide so well?

Dr Mike left me a container of tri-hist granules to give Shade. Except I couldn't find them when I went to feed her. I looked everywhere I could think of. I cannot fathom how a white plastic 'jar' of something could be so hard to find even in our mess. I even called the vet office that he must have left them in his truck. Well he looked and didn't find them so unless they were perched on the truck and fell onto the road as he pulled out they must be around our place somewhere, but its quite likely I'll just have to buy a replacement jar. Gaah I hate the way I mislay and lose things.

I also scheduled for Cindy to be euthed on Oct 27th. I think it will be a bit easier now that I scheduled it. Hope so anyway.

Dr Mike is coming tomorrow at 8:30

I hope he'll think I'm being over cautious with Shade and Sadie. I MUST schedule to put Cindy down as well and I'm pretty sure I want to do it before the end of October. I decided that burying her on my WY property was not going to be comforting enough to be worth asking her to balance in the trailer for 4 hours. She is resting her hock most of the time and 2 days of bute (3rd this am) has not changed this resting the hock and not being eager to move much that I can see. Plus *I* just would not get that much out of it anyway. I like to bury the dogs and cats but a good bit of the comfort comes from the labor of digging the hole and filling it in over them, arranging a back-hoe or whatever to get a horse sized hole would not have any comfort factor so since I am not on the property now to see the grave its not worth it on multiple levels. I am still too sentimental to even look into the big cat sanctuary. I have never asked if they even take horses euthed by bullet instead of the chemical method. Dr Mike has eased 4 horses over the rainbow bridge with no problems at our place so I am sticking with what I know, but I'm going to be tearing up a lot this next month.