finally friday

I have not been taking good advantage of my shifted work hours this week. Had errands to take care of monday and tuesday. I did ride Sadie on Wednesday, stupid dog was sore or something and wasn't coming so I turned around after only going about 3 tenths of a mile. (good thing is the greenie didn't get wound up at all) I rode a bit in our little arena ended the ride on a good note so not too bad. Then I had a late night and maybe allegries on thursday but I didn't feel like riding, and today I was moving slow and had a bunch of small interruptions so I didn't ride. I better try to ride both mares on saturday in case its blustery on sunday.

I did actually jog some on Wednesday. My knees and muscles hardly complained and I took care to keep my pace easy and not wind myself before taking walking breaks and I feel like I can jog at that level 2-3 times a week. Hopefully that will rev up my metabolism. I haven't not been starving myself, but have been pretty good about not mindlessly eating high calorie stuff or huge amounts but after losing a few lbs right away the scale average has been flat. I really would like to lose 10 lbs if not 15. That will put me back in 'sturdy peasant body type' territory without me feeling like I've got a bunch of flab.

Oy work. Yesterday I noticed as I was cleaning older files off some RAIDS that are due to get new hardware in hopes of speeding them up and checking on the archive area that one of the file types that should be saved had not been in the list to be archived for 2 different missions. This was after I had removed 5 months of data from all 3 RAIDS that had it. Oh well, its not absolutely critical data and could be re-generated but blase attitude of the perl guru who set things up and then just turned over archiving to the web expert and never ever checked the archive area to make sure all expected files were there. And only the main mission was generating one comparison data set with a huge, cumbersome forecast model we are getting specially from the European weather center. Oh well, makes me look better by comparison (I hope)

I bought 3 more mega millions 'tickets' If I win I'm thinking I should try become the new Rupert Murdoch. Once someone wins and the jackpot stops growing I'll assume that if god wanted me to win he would have arranged it and I'll stop playing again. I don't get enough entertainment out of it, in fact I'd have to buy tickets for the lower prize amounts to really get just entertainment. The thought of "I should do something productive with the dough if I win a HUGE jackpot" can be more daunting than fun.

OK, I did NOT receive any colorado tax form

They didn't mail any out. I got one from ND cuz in addition to their royalties off the top on the oil they also tax the income from those royalties. But at least they sent me the book and form. I could buy the "we are eliminating waste" from the state and federal govs as their rationale for not mailing out forms IF they let you check on the form that you wanted a paper booklet. Heck go ahead and charge me for it so people don't check off to get it when they don't expect to use it the next year but *I* would rather have a paper booklet to reference when I'm filling out my forms, sometimes I just print out the whole pdf so I can work that way. Just one tiny way they inconvenience honest folks while winking and waving the New Black Panthers, ACORN, et al to ignore every law and rule they find irksome.

I sure HOPE there is a huge silent majority that has realized todays Dem party puts the Soviet Communist party to shame in terms of "our supporters don't have to worry about laws", whilst throwing up such a thicket of laws that most folks are breaking at least one and can be harassed by the legal system if they are inconvenient to the ruling class. Toss the commiecrats out and split the GOP into true conservatives and the moderates who would be old style Dems but don't embrace full on marxism.

I need an energy boost

Darned allergies are kicking my butt this spring. Well I'm going to blame them anyway. I feel stuffy and tired and today I took both a generic ClaritIn tablet and a sudafed so they should be thwarting the darn allergies. I know I am lucky, I only get a swollen stuffy nose and not itchy eyes and other miseries. I just hope the pollen counts are really high this year rather than I am getting more sensitive every year which also tends to happen. I just bought another 60 day supply yesterday too and now am wondering if I'll want to explore the other allergy remedies like Zyrtec and Singulair. It used to be that sudafed was all I needed and last year I started adding the Claritin only when I was going to be on an all day ride. Oh well, at least I still have access to cheap drugs, wonder if the SCOAMT will 'fix' that like he is doing with energy.

Guess I should see if I can find my state tax forms online. I'm almost sure they sent me a booklet but I cannot find it. Sometimes I think I should live alone just so I would know absolutely that no one had moved something of mine when I cant find it --mom does take my stuff once in a rare while and forgets she did it or thinks it was her stuff or whatever and gives me "no I haven't touched,seen ..... " and had put it with her stuff but usually I've just forgotten that I did something odd with whatever.

The good, the bad and the ugly

Good. I had nice rides on the bay mares this weekend. Sadie was a green horse and I had to get off and lead her past some skeery junk at one point, but as long as she stands nice for me to get back on that is no problem for me. I went a different direction with her so she had new stuff to look at and think about.

I rode Shade on sunday. It felt cooler and we did some nice cantering and trotting. I am getting excited for riding season. I'm rationalizing trying to get to more early rides as 'in case I end up having to move in July or Aug'.

I was musing that its almost as if these two mares are leaving pheromones, they both got tense at a lot of the same spots as I was heading north.

Bad. I signed up for farmers only singles matching 10 days ago and have been cravenly avoiding it. Sheesh, its probably just going to be a few 'emails'. Do I think I'm too fragile to handle a few rejections or what? Just stupid

Also I need to sort out some plotting scripts I have at work. I had avoiding making changes to use the newer version of the software and now the old version is generating postscript that is hard to read and the conversion to jpeg is failing on the cpu that generates the plots. I was able to get a conversion on a different cpu but I need to stop using the old tool before I demand the sys admin upgrade things to handle the messy postscript (he may still have to upgrade but he is busy and stressed right now so I need to try to make his life easier first)

In fact he has been very stressed (from other stuff not my issue which he doesn't even know about yet) and took some extra PTO last week because he was having 'heart problems' Especially with Maggie having left the group cannot afford to lose him right now.

Ugly. the usual politics and progda media, but what pains me are people who are on the side of liberty getting ugly over to what degree we have to be shoving back. I CANNOT full out defend some neighborhood watch person for GETTING OUT of his car to tail or whatever someone he considered a suspect and ending up in a situation where he had to defend himself with deadly gunforce. Doesn't mean I think the police on the scene were wrong not to charge him, but I keep coming back to 'he was secure in his vehicle and he did not have to exit it because someone was in immediate danger, nor was his property being directly attacked, he should not have played cop; so yes the dead guy's family might have a winnable civil case, even if dead guy was a young thug'

Sad that the families of thousands of other dead young people have no national spotlight or sympathy because their deaths came at the hands of young blacks, so its non PC to get outraged by them.

Thank God for Clariton and horses

Sundays wind had blown the allergens away, I skipped taking anything monday and did not miss it. Thought I could skip again on Tuesday. Nope, but I took the 4 hr OTC sudafed and was mostly OK, but ended up caught up in some things at work and stayed late so I felt too tired to ride on Wednesday; but I did make sure to take the store brand Clariton equivalent. Today I actually felt human enough to take a short ride on Sadie.

She was pretty good but she has decided a junk collection spot on the trail where people dumped some new junk last week including floppy cardboard is SKEERY. She was being silly, doing 180's and taking evasive action and I got nervous she was going to stray into some downed wire farting around so I got off and led her past the spot on the way out and rode her around the spot before she got squirrely coming back. I probably should not do route changes but I don't think I'm reinforcing her goofiness too much.

I so would like to a have a real Galt's gulch in existence. I'd never qualify for recruiting to live there full time, but I hope I'd be one of the working resistance, taking only mindless jobs but refusing to give my mental energies to a system set up to reward stupidity and laziness with lots of upside down logic of proclaiming dreck to be high art and berating success as rape of Gaia, or unfair to countries with crap governments etc etc, then spending my vacations with the really smart vibrant people who had decided to go on strike rather than serve a society plunging itself towards full on socialism to refresh myself.

OTOH I believe that in the absence; the best one can do is try to promote classical liberal thinking. The British empire seems to have had core values from the best of the Greek and Roman systems, probably those core values were passed down through generations and shared with folks who could appreciate them until the ideas could bloom again. If you are the only one striking, that is not a strike, its just quitting.

Google is still a ways off from skynet level awareness

They are targeting ads to me for companies that I recently BOUGHT stuff from. How many people are going to buy a second 20 year air mattress a month after they bought one?

And if I were going to buy another bed, a click me google ad is not going to change my mind if I didn't like the company from the first one and was going to try their competition. And now they are doing the same thing with Lee Jeans after I made an internet order on Friday. If they were really aware they would realize I have not made a horse supps purchase for a while and flash those ads in my face LOL.

I suppose I should take this as a good sign that while they know I visited a companies web site they do not have information on the actual order placed via https.

Gaaah, feel like a caged tiger or something

I hate when I feel so unsettled. I did finally ask how much mortgage is on this place. Actually makes decisions harder as its not as much as I thought so I could hang on to the place if I wanted to. Mom is acting like she intends to live here forever again. Well with the mortgage not so high I would feel like the parents would not starve if I bailed. I joined farmersonly.com yesterday. I will probably not move out preemptively unless I meet someone, although every month it seems like I am more resentful of the emotional roller coaster .

Mega millions draws on fridays and tuesdays and I didn't win last night. I didn't even know it was not sat and wed like the other lotto's when I bought the tickets friday morning. I normally steer clear of the lottos, why give the states extra money when they spend so stupidly? but sometimes I buy a few tickets when there is a huge jackpot.

L was out today and we rode out. Sadie was a young green horse, got upset and did a bit of crow-hopping a couple of times but didn't feel like she was going to explode. She's doing pretty good for me. I think she'll be a decent ride if I don't make any big mistakes with her. So not a sure thing :P

I made fudge tonight. Tried the powdered sugar kind again. Well it is fudge, but I have to find a better way to use up all my excess cocoa powder and just stick with choc chips and condensed milk for making fudge to send to soldier in A-stan. Serving over there with the dumb ROE they have I want to send premium stuff. I already feel half-ways bad that they were hoping to get a pretty young thing sending them stuff although most of the SA's seem to be moms and grandmothers so I'm really not any kind of anomaly.

Sigh, Maybe other ACE readers got farther

I linked the article with the Lake County FL DNC chair flying a *flag* with Barry's ugly puss on it right under Old Glory on FB. The pic shows up without even having to click the article. I also requested on the conservative horse board could folks share it (board is tiny but I think some members have lots of FB and other contacts) A few comments on the horse board about blood boiling but no one else is linking AFAICT.

I looked around CL and there are several properties I could swing buying, but comes back to "do I want to stay in a leftist clinging state" and not sure my job is very secure if I even want to keep working for a *research* outfit that is in full embrace of anthropogenic global warming (even the non climate groups)

OK, time to giggle

bicycle lawn mower

Some one shared this on FB. It seems to be being presented like an actual "OH COOL, why didn't I think of this"

I hate being sleepy for no reason

Well ok the time change had a minor effect on me, but my hours are not rigid so I'm easing into it. I feel a bit stuffy, was fine all weekend though so I shouldn't be sick. I think its just my wimpy ass reaction to the stress of "I should find a place and move before being forced into it." It is not just a fuzzy thing any more.

The parents are probably going to divorce. I don't know the mortgage situation on their house but I'm pretty sure enough is owed on it that it would be idiotic financially to pay mom off what she wants on top of the existing mortgage to the bank. Its not set up very well to get someone as a room-mate, the only way to maybe make it pay a bit for itself to keep it would be to board outside horses in a much bigger way than we ever did in the past and that does not appeal to me. We don't have much riding facilities so I don't know how we would attract boarders. Possibly horse retiree boarding but that would be a risk of runaway owners.

Plus I flat feel like if mom is going to make such a selfish move she can suck it up to haul her accumulated junk out to the dumpster and generally get the place salable. *I* did not buy a big garden shed and fill it full of junk for a kid therapy career I was not going to put in the work to pursue when the attic was full.

I did not go fetch home a mini from the neighbor that owed me money. Taking on another 4 legged mouth to feed, that was not even halter trained, let along gelded and properly vaccinated and wormed over its life when you have spent less than 10 hours per year doing ANY thing with the mini's you already own as a debt payment? REALLY?

And my reward for not going Galt on fandamily is?

Walked into the house yesterday to pee before mounting to ride with L and mom is talking to someone on the phone. Thinks she can divorce dad and get at least xxxxx on the house. Probably thinks she can divorce, walk away with a pot of cash and dad and I will keep this place, still feed the mini's, maybe even AJ, free storage for all her crap and maybe even a monthly alimony. ............ *I* am not up for that, AT ALL.

Well it is up to dad not me if mom goes ahead but the sensible thing would be for him to get a decent lawyer, get agreement that any net from the house is split in whatever percents and mom gets no continuing alimony. He could then buy a modest place someplace where housing is not over priced if he wants to continue having a horse or two and country lifestyle. Maybe marry a horse lover that can't swing things on her own. Mom has been more into sitting on her @ss watching sports on television than doing any riding for over a decade. Heck when she was into riding the last several years it was only to go take lessons with an instructor that rained tons of positive reinforcement on her. More like paying modest $ to be praised than actual desire to RIDE.

The sensible thing for me to do is check CL's often and seize any opportunity for house and pasture share that comes up locally rather than waiting until I have to vacate here and having to pay high $$ board + rent on an apartment for who knows how long while I searched for a suitable place where I could live with the hosses. Maybe I'll finally join some farmers only and horse lovers singles sites. At this point I wouldn't mind going Galt on the co-workers and this stupid liberal state; even if the country rejects the SCOAMT, its a good job but that is not everything.

I might have to see if D would take Lady unless L proves willing to pay a full monthly cost for her. D has pasture and Lady would give her option to ride with DH or friends and not worry about her big mare going bronco. I think D is confident in her gelding (stallion till a few years ago) Strawberry to put serious rookies on, and he could carry her DH. Lady needs someone who doesn't get scared if she gets speedy but overall Lady is quite easy to ride, D has ridden her and enjoyed it, so I think she would take her on a free lease deal. L has had lessons, I think even some low level jumping, she does not get nervous, but she is pretty rookie and Lady only takes advantage a tiny bit to grab grass and makes a half-hearted attempt to turn for home on her own.

sunny and 73 to freezing drizzle in 16 hours

Just a typical early march event in Colorado. Its cool because it keeps the insect populations down. We usually don't have flies to the point of being bothersome until well into July or even August.

Yesterday I rode Sadie. She was not magically a calm ride with being ridden twice in 3 days but she is fun. She has been showing her inner Ayrab more lately but she does not "break in two" Her common thing is to do a rollback which I have to turn into a 360 if I'm a bit slow. She will also do a bit of crow-hopping but its really just a bouncy lope. So as long as she doesn't get to doing anything scary I am kind of enjoying the "Oh good, I can still manage a high energy green horse" feeling.

Although I most definitely think I should stick to the plan of "I'll just buy a horse that has been under saddle and is just too energetic for someone that wanted to trail ride with a slower group for my next new mount"

I wish I was artistic. I would love to have a photoshop with BarryO's nose in the air speech giving face and a caption like "As a conservative this is not a great year, but at least the Dems have this windbag as the face of their party"

It sure is MONDAY :(

Point out to worry wort FB poster that its not the 1970 and we have actually made great strides in cleaning up the environment and the eastern forested states are recovering from when they were cleared for farming -- AND boom the newest watermelon save Gaia meme is plastic in the oceans. Lots of liars have written articles implying there are islands of plastic the size of Texas choking the oceans. Real story: There are patches in the ocean where broken up bits of plastic accumulate in a very very thin stew. It can damage ocean critters when they swallow the plastics so its not a nothing issue but the patches are not growing in volume of plastic. Its almost like they made people more aware of the issue starting 20 years ago and they are much better about not tossing plastic now. Still can do better but its not a crying disaster.

One of my favorite reads on the web is 'going Galt' and no longer going to do his morning accumulation of 'Daily Doom'

My right arm was sore enough to wake me up last night. Guess I overdid it knocking hay bales off the stack. I had been trying to be so good about working out the adhesion patch and be careful where the tendon was out of its groove and feel like I'm back at square one now.

Well whining is not making me feel better so I'll move on to morning caffeine fix.

My Bayrabs this weekend

Saturday was Sadie's day. Started good, she stood in the ditch next to the road so I could mount easily. First time I have not had to take her into the middle of the road and let her circle me a little bit before she was ready to stand still since the hunting trip.

There was a dirt bike coming down the dirt road. Sadie has been so good with cars that I figured I could just take her into the wide ditch area where she'd have 30-40 ft as it passed. She spun around and was acting goofy though so the biker stopped and turned off the bike. I said I had not expected her to be so snorty as I led her past after I dismounted. Waited till he started the bike and turned the corner before I got back on.

I do love how this little mare moves. Nice swingy walk, we did some trotting, I asked her to go down into the dry irrigation ditch and we did something different and stayed in the ditch back to the spot where we pick up the road. Cantered a little bit up the hill.

So back alongside our pasture fence, letting her be in the ditch and nibble grass, meet a car and a pickup is coming behind us as well and she pitched a mini-fit about the pickup passing her from behind. --The great thing is her mini-fit was just crow-hopping. I didn't want to circle her around cuz there are gopher dug soft spots in the ditch, so I just kept her head up but didn't try to stop the *extra bouncy lope* and she quit shortly after the pickup had passed us.

Good in one way because she has shown that she does not break in two when she gets wound up and she has only been ridden 2 or 3 times in the last month.

Today I grabbed Shade. Ole was straggling horribly and Shade was all "aaak, neighbor is target shooting" I would have led her past the shooting if the dog was sticking but he was way back and not coming when I called so I just went home and rode around in the paddock area. Sadie and Razz both thought THEY might get cookies when I asked Shade to come up to the feed trough I turned over to use as a mounting block. --heh, no cookies when I'm not riding you though.

The 'flat work' was ok. Nothing great for rounding at the trot or anything but not stiff and bouncy, or being resistive. I think Ole is a bit off today. It was warm today but not enough that it should have bothered him with his boxer/pitty short hair coat.

Joining the Army of Andrews

I am kind of bummed that this sentiment of: "Step up and challenge liberal lies like Andrew did, it will take all of us to replace him" does not seem to be the majority reaction to his death among conservatives that loved him. I guess its easier for me because I have been feeling like I need to speak up even before I learned of his death + I was not an invested fan.

I would hear about the great talk Breitbart gave here or there and I clicked on a few for at least a few minutes but I have satellite internet at home and it puts a bunch of irritating pauses into youtube clips while it catches up so I have to really want to see something and it be reasonably short to put up with it; and I will click on a few things at work, but I don't want to get carried away.

I liked that Breitbart set up the BIG sites but I was frustrated that the Big Journalism didn't actually document specific instances of the MarxSpewMedia playing Pravda for the Dems like I thought it could and I would hear most of the good info at the ace.mu.nu site so I did not spend a lot of time browsing those sites.

So I am not experiencing personal grief at a deep level and having to work through denial, anger, .... sheesh I don't even recall all 5 stages of grief let alone in order. Maybe some of the folks who are still deeply grieving will move on to picking up the banner. I hope so.

But in the meantime I am committing to do so in my tiny circle of possible influence. I made up a poster pointing out that Barry was trying to bribe women into letting government into their bedrooms with his mandate and put it on FB saturday. Today I posted on FB that since the Dems are forcing insurance companies, even catholic church to hand out free RU-486 I want my coffee also provided for free, since its important to my quality of life and ability to earn a living. And someone shared a poster of "will it take the last tree dying or river being poisoned ............... for us to realize we cant eat money" on FB today and I asked what country or decade the author lived in since we have done a great job of cleaning up and reforesting in the U.S.

I guess I should seek to 'friend' just about anyone that will accept me on FB if I'm going to challenge the liberal memes there, but I'm going to go slow on that. It was bad for my BP and mental health seeing too much crapola before I dropped out and then came back without using my full name.

Follow the money

http://wattsupwiththat.com/2012/03/01/follow-the-money-why-heartland-is-a-big-threat/#more-58028

Look at all the government agencies funding climate research. And I'd bet dollars to dimes that the USDA is not limiting itself to adapting crops to hotter (or colder or dryer ....) climates. I KNOW the Dept of Energy is not just studying how energy needs might change wrt to warming or cooling ........

It is going to be UGLY when the facade crashes or the government realizes it is broke, whichever happens first.

Heavy heart today

Andrew Brietbart died last night. The best way to honor him is to pick up his sword and strike down some leftist lies but I fear I'm very ineffective. Oh well, if enough right thinking people make some extra effort to emulate AB perhaps we will win this battle for the life of a nation dedicated to notons of liberty rather than having the nanny state insist on a "fairness" designed only to protect them from having to hear squealing from the mooching looter class. "You WILL share that cookie that you saved with your cousin that gobbled his up the second he got it" I don't want to lose that fight even though I have no hostages to fortune direct from my genes.