Monday, April 28, 2014

Had a short ride on Saturday with L and Lady joining me on Sadie

How boring is that?  Someday soon I must get in gear to arrange some riding dates with people who will expand my boundaries with the young mare rather than me scaling back my at home rides to be comfy for L and Lady.   Oh well it was still vitamin H.

Then I put horses out and helped dad pull posts out where the old fenceline had been.  We are progressing on that project although its slow going.

Sunday it was damp and cold and I binge read David Webster's Honor Harrington.  Fun read,  it was a free intro download but I'll buy some of his work.   Not a lot real soon if I stay healthy because I can't be spending too many 10 hour days just binging on a fun space military adventure novel but its nice to have another author that I enjoy.   I should make a list of authors that are write fun novels that illustrate the benefit of conservative themes some day.

I pulled a bunch of weeds and grass Friday, over the weekend and this morning and I NEED to get over my unease and set about hiring some labor.  I will never catch up with all the cheat grass in the big flower bed even if I quit doing any riding for a week or two, this older, out of shape body just isn't up to it; and its not like it would be struggle to pay for the labor.

  I don't know why I have this hang-up about hiring labor.  I don't have a problem buying tools to make my life easier or even just buying for fun stuff and I don't hesitate to get a professional for veterinary or car mechanic etc work.   Maybe I've read too many stories with the Fugitive theme where a general laborer  comes back to rob the place or something.

 I also want to write an ad to free-cycyle some used shingles as i found that there were just a few shingle scraps in the little orchard area but they were holding up well for blocking weeds and grass, whereas the original weedblock fabric is no longer helping at all.   I found a few more shingle scraps in the backyard which is getting to be decent grass cover and can just be mowed now but I'd like to cover the whole orchard spot and the russian olive beds south of the house with shingles and not have to worry about weeding then anymore.  

Thursday, April 24, 2014

Rode 3.5 or so miles this morning.

I got a late start so was only going to take a quick 3 mile ride.   But Ole was not coming so I doubled back.  Didn't see him, thought maybe he snuck past me on the dirt road when I was going down the field or was looping through the CRP.   He had not  and hadn't shown up after I piddled around bit, putting bug spray in Sadie's ears and taking pics of Grey in the halter my horseboard friend sent.

Then I was getting late to get to work and didn't want to miss meeting if we had it since I had just been late yesterday after starting late and then having to double back and go a few miles around when some poor sods were in a car wreck and the cops had traffic stopped.   As often happens when I decide not to do something at home because 'I should not miss the blankity meeting'  there was no formal meeting although I discussed a couple of things with peers.

Hopefully Dad found Ole.  Normally I wouldn't have worried over much and would have just cussed Ole for blowing me off cuz he was eating something when I came back from my turn-around point but the news had a story about someone leaving poison in a park a couple days ago.  I was not near any park but since the dog had not finished up and come home when I'd been there over 30 minutes the poison association kicked up in my mind.

p.s.   Ole was fine.   One of the subdivision folks was walking his dogs along the ditch so Ole joined them I guess.   Dad drove down to the ditch twice cuz he didn't see Ole, thought maybe dog was visiting on one of the subdivision roads, checked that out and then went back and saw Ole had crashed the dog walk.   He was stiff and sore but no aspirin last night or this morning.  He had one on Wednesday night and then blew me off thursday so betweeen the "too many aspirins in a row will upset your stomach" and "that is how you thank me for giving you something to make you feel better" he just has to lump it at least until tonight. 

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

Another 5 mile ride this morning with L and Lady

Lady was a head tossing pill.   L was worried something was wrong with equipment or Lady felt crummy or something.  Finally I just put on my german dressage instructor hat and barked "just get after her and push her through it" and picked up a trot.   Lady did keep doing some head tossing even at the faster gait but not quite as much.    Spring skeeters and other bugs are newly thick and I think that was the problem but do not know.   Truly was one of those times where I don't think the horse is being harmed and figure they can  just work through some minor discomfort.  After all I have to do so  fairly often in working to keep them in hay and grain.

Sunday night Dad was watching Marley and Me.  I made the correct call not seeing it in the theatre or renting it (hardly a call as I never seem to go watch or even rent movies in these last several years, even ones I'd like to support like Lone Survivor or the Atlas Shrugged movies they made.)   Marley and me was quite a good TV movie, but I should have been smart and not watched the end where the dog is old and the guy has to take him to the vet to be PTS.    Oh well since I'm wrapping up antibiotics but with a few days left its probably the best timing I could have for flooding my sinuses with all those tears.   I try to avoid doing that often because with the rhinitis crying for more than a minute or 2 is like spreading a banquet for bacteria and like ants to a picnic they do show up all too often.

I remember some catty folks on my horse board ripping on the dumb couple for getting a difficult dog for their first pet etc when it first came out as a book.  Perhaps as a book it did rather drip with "you dummies" but the movie was good, it was clear that Marley with his antics was a good muse for the newspaper writer who perhaps exaggerated the problems as column fodder at times and the dog was great with the kids once they were past the too easy to knock over toddler years.  I thought Jennifer Aniston was well cast as the wife,  pretty & sweet but needy and whiney at times and Owen Wilson did a pretty good job as a dude growing into husband and father responsibilities  from wanting to be like his single friend that chased both stories and chicks.

Sunday, April 20, 2014

Two more 5 mile rides, took down some fence wires

Inching along on the replacing the fence line for Grey and Shade's pen.  I didn't re-block them from their little trees quick enough and they took off a bunch of bark.   I'm hoping they didn't girdle more than the twin branch on one of them but its quite possible both trees will die.  Stupid horses, stupid me for suggesting letting them graze the grass a bit and forgetting that Dad never pays enough attention that he would notice the grass was down and he needed to block them.   Oh well I hate to see trees that had gotten to 15-20 feet and would have provided some shade die but I'm not a tree hugger and I sure am not going to do the hippie crying if they die.

Rode about 5 miles yesterday and today.   A fairly decent pace Saturday even with L and Lady.  Pretty decent amount of trot and canter today.   I need to start getting longer rides and hills in on weekends if I want to go to WY for the ride on Memorial day.  I'm not wildly enthusiastic to go for that ride's sake but want to go to get the exposure on Sadie and get a feel for whether it'll make sense to try to move up to 50s with her this year. 

I did some beer therapy yesterday after the tension headache was back as a minor nuisance though not serious pain in the morning before riding with L.   Seemed to help quite a bit so I had another beer after riding Sadie this morning before going out to dink a bit on the fence.   I'm feeling pretty confident that whatever sinus thing I had is being snuffed out by the antibiotics and I just has coincidental tension and neck/back of head spasm pains from not having my temporary replacement monitor at the right height at work.   

Thursday, April 17, 2014

A canter is the cure for every evil or least for modest stress

Had a fun ride today on Sadie.  Asked her to spend more time in higher gear because I need to get some actual conditioning started if I'm going to actually complete some rides this year and if I don't at least get back to completing some LD's while I have money and health and time if I don't waste too much of it browsing the web I'm going to kick myself if one or more of those things goes away.

I slept well and am thinking that the head pains of yesterday which are back but on the other side  today but only in the last hour is very likely from tension wrt to work and also that I'm having different head tilt because my desktop cpu crashed and the replacement monitor is a bit different.  Although the disk got replaced and the sys admin restored (maybe --if the data copy sent to back up was not too corrupted because disk was already getting flaky ) over a week ago  he has not put it back on my desk.    There have been other things taking some of his time but I may need to start whining a bit in case he is hesitating thinking I'll be upset if the restore failed.   I won't be upset at him if stuff was lost cuz its my fault for not asking that my desktop be included in the backups or making a backup myself on an external drive.

So anyway, trying to be aware of  head and keep a more neutral position and do a bit more stretching and I backed off my Sudafed and caffeine to aid that along.  Also backed off on taking Alleve or another NSAID so that any pain would be easier to isolate.   Arggghh the borrowed computer has some auto-correction enabled and is being a PITA busy-body, changing my slang and such.


Wednesday, April 16, 2014

ride diary catchup

I had a nice ride on Saturday.   Only went about 5 miles but it was pretty good training and the pace was decent for conditioning.   I took a short (3 miles) ride on Tuesday morning,  it was pretty good too.

Tuesday it was after 5 before I remembered I had to finish up any signing etc. on my fed and ND tax forms and get them mailed.  Luckily the close post office is open till 6:30.  I had to go in and buy stamps as I didn't have any in my wallet.    There was a pretty good line, including a surprising # of people who had waited until late on tax day to come in to ship packages, but they were fully staffed and moved folks along pretty quickly.

Then my quick trip to the bank was stressful.   The stupid drive-thru ATM was not giving the check deposit option which I have used in past months.   After dinking around with lots of menu choices trying to find the deposit check option I Finally drove around and parked and went to the ATM in the vestibule and it had the normal options and took the check.    Then back to the office and did my home state taxes online.    This may have been my personal best for procrastinating on taxes. :P

This morning I finally figured out some code at work that was often failing at one of six time steps it runs at.   Maybe now I can get to some decent comparisons on processing methodology.  

I am trying to decide if the antibiotic my HMO gave me is not working very well or if I'm having some other kind of headaches.   Pain seems to be more at my temple but it is mostly on the one side and there is some inner-ear pressure I think.    So frustrating.  If I had a cause I could throw cures at the problem but I don't know if I'm getting muscle spasms from different monitor height at work and some tension with "arrghh I don't know how to get really good results"  or its all sinus related or what.  

Saturday, April 12, 2014

Philosophy essay for the month --friendship

How do you view friendship?   I've always viewed it as a pendulum of give and take, where if I can help a friend out or brighten their day when they are down I'll do so and they'll reciprocate.   I always thought that was pretty much standard operating procedure for how friendships work.   Doesn't have to be to and fro every time but there will some back and forth. 

But it seems like some folks view friendship as 'pay it forward.'   I'm by no means against pay it forward and have been both the beneficiary and payer with it.  But in that mode vs friendship I'm going to pay it forward one time unless its for charity or for an acquaintance who is not at friend level I may do stuff for them periodically even though I'm never getting back-atchas, *IF*  I enjoy their company and I am rolling along well in my own life and have energy to give at the moment but I'm not going to dig into my well for them.  

Some people in life are just takers and hardly ever give as far as I've ever seen and I have an easy time dealing with them.  Surface pleasantness but I have a deaf ear and blind eye if they are hinting for favors because I dislike feeling used.   And some people are just acquaintances, they may do things for their friends but I'm not in that circle and that is OK, I only do stuff with them that is mutually beneficial like L riding Lady.  I get a little bit of help on the cost of feeding Lady but mostly Lady gets semi-regular riding which keeps her being a good little rookie horse plus I have some riding company which is nice even if its not advancing my horses' training or conditioning levels. 

But there are people who are not takers and I witness or hear about them doing things for others all the time but it seems like they must have that pay it forward,  or trickle down or ??? view, where they they give to their emotionally needy friends but are almost always taking from friend/acquaintances  they view as higher on the hill OR they consider me just an acquaintance even after I've done things for them that go beyond what I'd normally do for someone on only an acquaintance level.  

And I don't deal well with that.   I feel like "what?  Am I not nice to be around?  Where did you get the idea I would not enjoy yada yada that you handed out to A B and C but not to me?"  and so on.   Then I feel like I'm being surly or paranoid or whatever but still there is that hump and I cannot just sweep it aside and in fact if I'm feeling guilty I'm even more inclined to want to just avoid even thinking about them.

 They get shifted to "Well if I'm rolling along and have extra time and energy I'll go a little out of my way for you since I enjoy your company and the mild warm fuzzy feeling from being nice. But w/o feeling like there is some to and fro friendship I just have no motivation to try to summon energy or make time if its not just sitting there readily available.   

Thursday, April 10, 2014

still feeling whiny with sinus/allergy, two more rides on Ms Sadie

Tuesday I repeated the Sunday 4.6 mile ride but w/o going over any branches.   Sadie stopped in the dry irrigation ditch to wait for her treat.   So much nicer than if she was rushing and lunging up the other bank right away.

L came out today.   Lady seemed fine,  I kept Sadie behind so Lady would pick her own pace,  she did  quite a bit of her corto gait and some cantering and we went 4 miles.   L is going to have to start taking Claritin before coming out,  grass or weeds are throwing allergens and she was sneezing and itching.   Yesterday early in the day I thought that adding in Mucinex to my allergy fighting regimen was turning the tide and making me feel fine but I work up this morning very stuffy and with a mild headache that has mostly lasted all day, possibly some tension headache and not extra sinus issues though -- I stayed at work wrestling with tar baby of programming issue and then stayed up watching the "end" of Justified --it  was an extra long episode I guess,  got home around midnight and the show ran until after 12:35;   But I don't feel too bad right now and don't a lot of drugs on board.

  I couldn't tell if it was the season finale or not.  Kind of seemed like wrapping up and setting a hook for the next season but then I'd heard that this year might be the final season.   Maybe next year is the last season or this year might have been but they worked out negotiations with "Raylon"  I'm blanking the actor's name although I know I've read it and heard it multiple times.  Or maybe they are going to wrap things up with the new lady crime boss in a last couple of episodes, I have not had enough ambition to try to look it up on the net.  I'll find out soon enough.

Sunday was nice weather and I felt good in the morning but I had asked Dad to work on the fencing project he first mentioned he wanted to do at some point 2-3 years ago.   We got 9 posts set and my arms were sore and I was tired from tamping them in + getting cold as the weather was changing.  We didn't get back out to finish things up although it got nicer later in the afternoon but Dad has been working on the project by himself so Yay him.   It is going to be really nice to have the new fence line.  It will look good and I won't feel like I can only put Grey and Shade in there  --- they are so very good staying in a fence even if they could crawl through it; plus they get along real well and are not my main riding horses so I don't worry about them getting cut and put out of commission.

I *have* a new plan to try with my work issue.  Hoping it will work well.

That was yesterday.   Today I woke with my typical sinus infection symptom so got into my HMO and got a prescription for some antibiotics.   Hopefully that will kick the issue.  

Saturday, April 5, 2014

arghh allergies or cold go away already. Nice little ride today at least

Was stuffy this morning with pressure on my ears and a mild headache.   Sis called and said she'd had similar situation after having flu and nurse recommended taking mucinex and sudafed.  So I'm already taking sudafed although couldn't recall if I'd taken one this morning, so took the 2nd rate 4 hr stuff rather than possibly doubling.   But added mucinex.   I guess its working -- I don't feel so stuffy but the post-nasal drip is making my throat sore.   Maybe I need to buy a dust mask for feeding hay,  so sick of this,  I keep thinking a sinus infection may have set in, but then I don't get persistent pressure that keeps bouncing back in one spot and my infections always manifest with that symptom.


OK breaking away from the whining.  I had a nice ride on Sadie this afternoon.  Went about 4.6 miles total.  Took her to the highway and across the irrigation ditch on the road,  had her step over some large trimmed tree branches next to the ditch road and then she volunteered to cross the ditch where I got off wednesday and led her down so we crossed there and I let her head home instead of trying to bump the mileage up any higher.   I did get a load of laundry done and made spaghetti with the Italian ring sausage that Dad accidentally had the butcher do with the deer instead of getting our normal bulk sausage,   It tasted fine in the spaghetti sauce, slight pita having to boil it up and slice it vs just browning and crumbling bulk sausage.  Possibly would not have to boil it but I didn't want to risk not getting it cooked through.  The old mozzarella that had been lurking in the freezer compartment I cleaned out last weekend tasted fine.    Good thing I bought 2 cans of spaghetti sauce,  started with just one and didn't have enough sauce to match the amount of noodles and sausage so had to dump the 2nd can in. 

Wednesday, April 2, 2014

3 more rides

Had a nice ride this morning.   Nice change after Sunday when Sadie was so goofy I rode her in Shade and Grey's paddock rather than going down the road.  She was ok in the paddock, some high bounce canter and 180's but nothing major.    Saturday I rode her 4 miles.

Today we crossed some logs and the dry irrigation ditch.  Not in the good spot because there was an EEK cardboard box several yards from there.  So went to the other spot, got off and led her down the bank since its kind of steep on that side.  Then got on and up the ditch, back into it and towards the good spot but when she got within site of the box she went  "I can pop up right here" --which I knew she could, but had worried that I might not stay with her when she did it.

Finished my Federal taxes.  Well if I just take my standard deduction I'm done.   and I will not mess with itemizing this year because if you give more than $250 *at a time* you're supposed to get some extra documentation vs just having the canceled check or whatever if I read the instructions right. 

Plus if I itemize on the federal I have to add the state tax deduction back and if I take the std deduction I can deduct the charity for state level taxes on top of it.  It may be more money overall out of my pocket although I haven't done the full math but way less hassle given that dumb extra documentation unless one gives multiple smaller donations federal rule and as long as this state keeps electing liberals to screw good folks to fund the FSA there is satisfaction in giving them as little as possible even if it may be a bit more out of my pocket vs giving the feds less and them more.