winter blahs.

I would say post Christmas but we didn't do anything for christmas and the gift exchange (except with bro in Calif) doesn't happen for a couple of weeks yet. But I've been lethargic physically and also just a big MEH wrt to the old horse board site, and also the conservative blog with wide open comments that I had mostly substituted; it was such a relief right after 2008 to find there were many people who had not drunk the kool-aid. But I don't know, maybe I just can't maintain that kind of interest in the messy area of politics, or I am just dismayed that Perry, the candidate I had the most hope for rolling back some of the crap Barry and the Dems foisted on the nation (and I didn't trust him completely) is faltering.

I just have a bad feeling that Romney won't shrink government, but will just count on economic growth coming form stopping the anti-busines talk and attitude to pay for the super size version of gub'mint the dem's have put into place. Plus the MarxSpewMedia might get Barry re-elected if they go full anti-mormon blitz. The media are almost giddy about Romney picking up a bit in polls in Iowa, not sure if its cuz they are comfortable that he won't upset their apple cart of socialism gains, or if they anticipate they can defeat him in the general.

Ugh, I am still depressed about the pervasiveness of socialist/marxist thought in the MSM and especially television. Can the population resist the constant drip drip drip they are getting, especially the ones who are not even aware that the media is peddling propaganda rather than reporting?

I should be happier about making real gains in the of tossing clutter that has been weighing me down on a personal level but perhaps I am getting to the burn-out stage. Still lots of clutter left and I am getting tired of sorting and deciding what to toss.

I got Sadie's back shoes pulled today. They came off pretty easily -- so I guess I have failed to rasp off enough of the clinches when I've pulled shoes before. My neck and arms were sore driving in, even though I did some of the rasping on tuesday and didn't wrestle with shoe pulling too long today, so I still want to keep my day job and pay someone else do to the hoof maintainence.

I have an office :)

I boxed up a bunch of old computer equipment. Since we were shuffled into a temporary office for 9 months and are moving back into remodeled space in June I can just dump all the keyboards, mice, speakers etc into the electronic stuff to recycle pile then. Bwaahaahaa, actually they love being green so much they'd probably at least unofficially be in favor of this. Still I won't take in the monitor or cpu tower which would normally have tags on them here and probably have to have a form filled out before they are destroyed. So I have to decide on just tossing those vs hassle of taking somewhere and probably being charged a disposal fee. Since they have so over-hyped AGW/CC etc I am inclined to just toss the stuff in the dumpster. I also threw away tons of old catalogs, bank statements from WF whom I dropped as a bank 3-4 years ago etc and put together some magazine holders and organized my old Endurance News that I am not ready to toss yet. (I'm still a pack rat at heart) Feels so good to have the surfaces clear and so on. I think I might try to get a love-seat for this room instead of searching for a specialty armless chair or trying to shoe-horn a love-seat into my bedroom. I like the idea of keeping the computer stuff out of my sleeping area if I can.

I have moved on to the project room and made a big dent there too. Tossing lots of things, still keeping some things I should no doubt toss, but have gotten most of my keep stuff organized into small boxes and put in my bedroom closets which had been cleared for putting in hardwood flooring and I had never sorted stuff out and moved it back. Still lots of de-cluttering left to do, but sticking to one room until it looks nice IS helping a lot with not burning out (this is std advise in how to organize and de-clutter columns but I've never been good at sticking to it in the past) Still need to move some of my stuff out of this room and get mom's stuff packed up and tidied away but the room is reappearing.

Some times its great to be wrong

After mom lightened the paint and it was not leaving white streaks between dark/bright blue it turned out pretty decent. I have not been so rude as to repeat the painting advise she gave me with my bedroom -after I had finished with the painting --about taking the wall color a tiny bit onto the ceiling rather than leaving any white edge at top. Textured ceiling makes it hard to get paint right up into the corner and neither of us is the type to take an artists brush and spend extra hours to get paint up in there.

I put up the tree last night and stuffed dads present in a gift bag this morning. --Funny, as a kid I loved the idea of wrapping presents. We had some play sessions where we played christmas by wrapping our toys with newspaper to 'give' to each other. Now I like to limit wrapping as much as possible. Not being good at getting a really tidy package and never having a clean work surface and having to contend with a soft bed or maybe carpet took the fun out of it after a few years. Anyhow mom made it easy by wanting cash for laser treatments for her jaw/face. Dad bought a big TV from the neighbors that they were no longer using so I don't have to decide on buying a TV for the house as a gift to myself. We probably won't unwrap anything until sis comes down mid Jan for stock show or possibly will do one gift each if one of the parents wants to unwrap something on Xmas day.

Sent my sister something called "hot jugz" which is a special heavy duty and neoprene covered version of a 2 gal. garden sprayer with a shower hose and head attached. She does a solar shower in the back of her trailer and I had wanted to get some kind of the portable propane heated hot showers but they all seem to require a flow of water to regulate temp and not get too hot and that wouldn't be so easy to set up when she just has the trailer corner tank and maybe a few 5 gal jugs of water usually. I've wrestled with tying up the solar shower bags a few times and I thought this portability might be nice, can either use water heated in a solar bag or heat a couple saucepans on the stove for a quick shower if it was too cold or cloudy for the solar shower. If she likes it I might get one just for hunting, normally I don't do freezing nights camping and I have hot water heater and shower in my trailer, just have to plan ahead enough to heat up the water (I don't like leaving that flame on when I'm gone riding so I don't) I got her SO the DVD of 'sons of anarchy' 3rd season and pre-ordered 4th season. Also gave my sis a new shut-off valve hose attachment and also another 10 ft hose JIC --hose was no more money than the attachment although I don't think she needs to replace her one.

Sent my bro and his family a check. Last year I actually sent them a list with some low cost options and bought some modest stuff from their list and sent to them after splitting the oil royalties and they sent me a lovely card. Well I had not done actual shopping for them the previous couple of years, but I figured with giving them a list they would get the hint that I was going to go to the extra trouble and was thinking it would be OK to swap actual items. Oh well, gave me a good reason to skip shopping stress for them this year (and even with Amazon it is some stress)

I want to get a good comfortable office chair in the office upstairs and a comfy very short loveseat or armless chair in my bedroom. This will probably be my present to myself although I might see if sis wants to hit thrift stores/low cost furniture stores with me if she didn't find stuff from my list when she comes down during the stock show. In the meantime I am pecking away to go through the assorted clutter, tossing the junk and organizing the stuff to keep into decent storage places to make some room for a couple new furniture items and just make the upstairs spaces more inviting in general.

pre-school blue for a living room?

Mom started her painting project and she is painting the living room a dark shade of royal blue AFAICT it is somewhat hard to tell how dark it will be because its so streaky at this point. It is not too bad in the morning light but last night when I got home and it was just interior lights YIKES. She better knock off any talk of selling and moving after choosing such weird paint colors.

But anything to push me out of the nest is probably good. She is doing a great job of negating all qualms I had about whether its fair to yank my rental income and horse care labor away from them in their senior years.

Oh, the paint color was called twilight blue. So there, it is not at all what a kid would pick to paint a bedroom but an honest grown up color. Well after choosing a pretty dark grey for my bedroom as a teen I tend to err on the side of choose light shades of neutral colors but I cannot get on board with 2 good sized walls that color. Today she is experimenting with lightening the blue. Which will keep the room from being overly dark I guess and would probably cover much easier but its still blue and I cannot get beyond "blue is ok for a small room like a bathroom or bedroom, but it aint right for a large area" but no matter, it is not my house and I do not have any moral, let alone legal obligation to keep renting space there.

December, the month to be stressed.

Mom always wants a list and I don't like to give too big of a one because she thinks she needs to fill it out. So I come up with winter fleece riding pants and various stuff this year and she goes and buys mw some weird riding pants that were like ski pants with a full seat leather sewn on for my birthday. Ugh I really dislike like riding pants that don't stretch, and they were too small. I'm going to have to do some formal dieting i guess. Sucks getting old and I really didn't enjoy the reminder that I've packed on weight the last couple of years.

Well at least she has gotten quite good at sending things back. I don't know why I am so overly irritated about it, its a tiny deal really, I am old enough I would just a soon forget I even had yet another birthday, and don't care if I get any presents, but I am just hyper annoyed that she asked for a list and then went and bought something different. She was trying to do a good thing but I cant help taking it as ---thought she knew better than me yet AGAIN. Then I feel badly about being so churlish over a gift, its just straws on the camel's back type stuff though.

And I got a letter from new neighbors in WY, they want to buy my property. I should be wildly overjoyed at the prospect of walking away from that lot that I can't even turn my trailer around in, but I am feeling all stressed, wondering how much of a haircut I should take if they won't come near what I paid for it and then what I should do with that cash if they are willing to pay enough to make me walk away from that albatross.

Sadie gets her wolf teeth out tomorrow ....

I have to remember to get out and feed early so she has a chance to eat. She has been being pretty good with the sidepull so I think the teeth were bugging her. Not perfect but pretty easy to correct when she gets a bit snotty. I think its possible she has a bit of an ulcer, she seems to almost need to snatch some grass to sooth herself. Well I'll see what transpires. If she has them she may be able to recover without medication.

todays oxymoron: Climate Change

Sticking Change after the word Climate to me implies that planet earth had a stable climate that is now changing. and in fact I'm pretty sure that is the desired response, they want people to go "OMG the climate is changing --Oh Noes, the government must do something about that", -- at least fund scientists to study it (we need to keep our jobs LOL)

But seriously it makes the climate/atmospheric scientists sound like they don't know that the earths climate has been in state of flux for the 4-5 billion years the planet has existed. These educated people that think themselves intelligent mock the creationist folks for thinking the earth was created in 6 days about 10K years ago while at the same time they manage to imply that earth's climate was quite stable around the values of the 1960-70's. HELLO --ever heard of the ice age? (which is just the most recent one) for that matter, are you completely ignorant of the Roman warm period, medieval warm period, Little Ice Age (which was no ice age but dumped enough ice on Greenland to force the Vikings to abandon their settlements.

IMO the creationists need to go 6 'days' for God, not 6 current earth days, and the tiny segment that tries to grasp at scientific straws that earth might be as young as 10K or whatever # they get from counting generations are hurting, not helping Christian belief but thats another rant.

Orwell was just 25 years off with 1984

Someday I should actually read it but I've heard about the newspeak idea. Well the free bus passes staff can have are not bus passes or RTD passes they are "ECO passes" and of course the smartest president ever is not dumb for saying he has visited most of the 57 states on the campaign trail but Perry is an idiot for saying 8 unelected justices and not recalling Sotamoyer off the cuff. And Barry is not dumb for saying he doesn't speak Austrian ...., its just normal jet lag when he writes the wrong year after he asked and was given the rest of the date and on an on. I am so tired of the MarxSpewMedia and their word tricks, non-coverage of Dem/socialist failures and crimes and so on. And the evening comedians are the worst. Sorry but "Clinton was a cool dude and hard to skewer" and "cant skewer Barry cuz of race" doesn't cut it. Gore was very un-cool, Biden has no race card and they are not skewered, it is deliberate propaganda and its probably more effective than the prime time news filtering, since comedy resonates more with people.

Time to buckle down

Seems like I've written that before but I really need to stick to it at work. I want out of there unless some big things change but I want them to miss me, not fire me. Sent myself a list last night. I should ride Sadie and see if she has gotten over being so cranky too. Then I should tackle some fencing. I really don't want to run a 3rd water heater but I need better fence to separate Lady from her buddy Sadie.

Ugh I hate the aftermath of dental work

Dental work itself is not bad, but I sure wish there was a way to reverse that facial numbness quickly. It drives me nuts, I sure hope I never get that virus that gives one temporary facial palsy especially with any effect on my lips or tongue. That would be some miserable weeks. I even last time I had a cavity put up with some discomfort rather than request more novacain or whatever they use these days. And this was a shallow cavity and should not have needed a huge amount of numbing but I think he gave me a monster dose. OK whine over, but sadly I have not much to say.

Ace has a story on Fast and Furious unraveling and that Barry let his true socialist side show today in KS which should be good news but I am not reassured at all. It will sadden but not shock me if he gets re-elected anyway. The GOP insiders seem determined to offer only the barest difference to the socialist dems, I was not paying attention but CBS had a story -I guess on Fast and Furious -but they did NOT make it all obvious that Barry's government with Dem majorities in both houses of congress helped guns get to Mexican cartels. They were interviewing some state dept guy who was arguing that this was a help to U.S. firearms dealers and CBS was not making it clear that Barry's government ended up putting guns into the hands of mexican drug cartels. Of all the big fat lies, but they get away with big fat lies pretty often.

And sadly I think a fair percent of the population is ready to vote for an open socialist, especially if the media paints whomever the GOP nominates as either "really the same but the socialism will be slanted towards business --which the public might buy, they don't know the Dems hand out corporate welfare to GE, as well as their pet green energy companies on a scale that would make any Republican blush (since the media would point out the cronyism with an R president" or if we somehow get a more conservative nominee the media will do their best to "palinize them" I know they tried similar stuff with Reagan but I don't recall just how far they went and I don't know if Reagan was just fantastic at communicating or if the country was just done listening to the chattering media heads after 4 years of Carter and if the population will listen to one of our current conservative crop who are not fantastic speakers (I am lumping Newt into "the media will paint him as just as socialist but with more of the goodies going to big business" ) category I guess Newt is a great speaker, personally have not listened to more than several minutes of the combined debates nor the sunday talk shows (I really hate those chattering heads for what they did to us, selling Barry to the naive masses)

institutional inertia or worse?

Gaah, I had not realized that the whole outfit had joined the climate scientist group in jumping on the C02 is doom bandwagon. I don't think I can stand to just keep my head down wrt to this and not challenge shit built on foundations like chopping off the last 60 years of tree ring data which did not match instrument temperature data to proclaim "the earth has never warmed like this before" --apparently tree rings and sediment layers are much more reliable than history written by those evil Romans and medieval european folks except when they contradict 20th-21st century thermometer data in which case we just pretend the tree data doesn't exist. I'd rather end up fired than pretend this bullshit is all 100% solid science. If its solid then why isn't the raw data openly available to skeptics who claim the methods were bad? If you don't trust the skeptic's methods open the raw data up anyway and trust that your peers will reproduce your results with independent methods.

Beginning to think they KNOW at least deep down that the science isn't very good but they are so enamored of growing government, perhaps an international government; to address the situation that they ignore their own doubts. The commies have not just succeeded in repressing stories about the abysmal failures where marxism has been tried, they also managed within the public schools to make history seem like just a boring exercise in memorizing meaningless dates, very smart way to discourage interest in history, thus letting them get away with a lot more lying. Cunning evil bastids they were. Now they have a bunch of supporters who don't even think of themselves as aligning with the communists.

come on coffee, do your thing

I didn't think I had gotten overly behind on sleep this weekend, but I guess the short night on friday is catching up now I'm stuck in a cozy office. Oh well I'll find a project I need to get done in a little bit.

Here's your sign

wattsupwiththat climategate emails

Its not the only sign god has given me either. I really have got to do some research and pick an alternative life path sooner rather than later.

On a happier note: I have been feeling a bit blue for purely selfish reasons and was praying to be given a better mindset. So last night and this morning I am packing up to drive to my friends wedding. It has been so long since I had any kind of dress up event to attend that I had to wash stuff that had gotten dusty hanging in the closet, I could not find my tiny set of jewelry, I didn't even thing about nail polish, or makeup beyond my basic foundation that I wear for combo sunscreen and covering up rosacea .......

I had been feeling like I'm going to be a 5th wheel and stuck at loose ends with being it being a distance friendship so I don't know the bride's local friends and the handful of folks I will know there are either involved in the wedding or will probably have to leave quicker afterwards while I had decided to wait and drive back on sunday morning.

NOW I am like, well I have two books I haven't even started yet so I can enjoy them if I have free time while everyone is busy or tomorrow evening and thank goodness I am so so far out of the central focus that no one will take any notice that I am not properly glammed up and they certainly wont care a whit if they do happen to notice. and I am SO happy for my friend's joy with getting married. One of the sweetest people that everyone would root for to find true love and happiness.