Must keep my resolution

Boss is not making it easy.   But if he was a good boss I wouldn't be trying to do so many things and could work in his little obsession.  Since he has driven so many people to leave and been such a slowpoke to get new people in there is just no way I can possibly humor him, I have got to attend to real priorities.   But I hate conflict and the whole stress of having to fend him off is making me turn to time wasting things like puzzles to get myself to a point where I can work at all.

This too shall pass.  This too shall pass.  I passed my test of being honorable last fall/winter with the incorrect ride results and I will pass this character test as well simply because I need to.  If I let him mis-direct how I spend my time it will put the group in a hole and I'm not going to hurt the group.

If he gets totally psycho about it and fires me that would be him hurting the group not me and I think his boss would probably tell him to grow up and not sabotage the group when we are SO short handed right now.  Anyway some part of me would be happy to be pushed out of this quagmire, but I will stick it out and try to help the group succeed vs quitting because even the bosses are basically good people and I really wouldn't want to hurt all the scientists that have devoted so much time and energy to the mission over the years.

So tired

I'm tired of the liberals and their BS lies on TV and FB.  I'm tired of feeling so behind and stretched too thin at home and wondering how to solve the issue.  I hate the thought of bringing a stranger into the house but we have a big house so trading room and board, or room and board for person + horse would make sense to get another able body to do some of the chores.  Hiring somebody is a crap shoot of finding someone good, still would be a stranger coming onto the place and if I had them do housework coming into the house ,and I think would put a pinch on my budget although I've been lazy about doing a budget the last few months.

I'm tired of the management at work not communicating with me.  I think they don't communicate with the team period; but its possible they do share info orally in the mornings when I am not there.  And Im just tired of the group boss being a toad.  He wants everyone to code in his style which he can't make time to explain and his code structure is overly complicated and hard to follow.  I've never coded in Obj. oriented style but other software people also tell me its hard to follow his code so its not just my lack of training in that way of coding.   It would be OK if he just wanted people to code in python and c, c++,  rather than "follow my cryptic style."   Sigh.  And he won't even hand off the passwords and manual to program our ground rcvrs to the IT team.  

All of that behavior goes with someone who is too insecure to enable his team, but with his resume and skills he should not be insecure.  He can write code, he knows the science quite well, he is good at interacting with the funding folks, the division boss did the same PHD program as him so he knows he has a solid advocate above him.   I need to get with my plan of buttering him up and coaxing that he needs to hand things off because we can't afford for him to give himself a heart attack trying to do the work of 3 people.