I wish I didn't feel so stressed when I spread a little truth

But for my overall self-respect I need to keep up with the truth spreading, maybe the clench in my guts when I push back against a lie that a casual friend is reposting on FB will go away with practice,  it is hard to be a happy warrior when one is worried about friends going "ow my eyes" when you yank back the curtains but they need to learn to be skeptical of the MarxSpewMedia and like the pupils of a person who has been holed up in dark room will adjust and they can see the pretty colors they were missing ...... 

On the personal front I'm still doing the jogging and walking.  I had to force myself to go out yesterday but it felt SO good when I was putzing down the trail.   I do need to be sure to have allergy meds because my spring allergies are flaring.  I may even need to use the treadmill at work but I don't think I'd enjoy it so I'm hoping I can just use modern drugs and enjoy the great outdoors.

I'm pretty low on mileages but have been riding both Sadie and Tanza.  Life is not too bad, just need to keep working on finding the balance between overloading with negative information vs letting the media lie to me,  limiting time in comments sections helps a bit with not feeling over-run by the doom.  

Trying to get myself in shape, fun 4 rides in last 4 days

I rode Tanza Friday and Sunday and Sadie Saturday and this morning.   Sadie is acting like a snorty goofball these last two rides.    I'd put her on raspberry leaves except she got hives when I tried that last summer.  I don't know that its hormones anyway.   If I was one to quickly blame feed for every little thing I'd think the equine senior is giving her too much molasses or something but I tend to think that is BS.

Tanza was fairly good.  I am still thinking OMG I am just getting too old for a green young horse.  He is pretty good but he gets to rushing on the way home and I get overly tense about it.   Oh well I think we'll get through this stage.  I had similar misgivings with Sadie w/ extra bonus of "since I turned the saddle on her, she is never going to trust me"  and that passed with some tincture of time.

Friday I went "I have GOT to start exercising and boost my metabolism, I cannot stand how fat I'm getting and I have not been eating that badly."

Two times jogging/walking  -Friday and today and Sunday I led Tanza out to get a good walk in + not be worried that a 4-wheeler would surprise him.   I also did quite a bit of hoeing grass and pulling out the dried up stalks from last years hollyhocks in mom's gargantuan flower bed both weekend days.  

There are a few crocus blooming and the tulips are up and looking healthy but don't have any flowers yet.   There are a few spots where it looks like I should dig the bulbs and replant them for better spacing.  I may have to ask the gardening folks when to do this.  Or even try to find the info in one of mom's old gardening books.

I need to keep up the jogging and make it into a habit rather than dropping after just a few times so I am trying hard to not overdo at the start and feel like I'm getting sick which has been a common thing I do when I think I'm going to start exercising.   I never get back to it when I take a week or 2 off to make sure I don't end up sucking infection deep into the sinuses.   This time the plan is to still take walks if I feel like I might be getting sick to try to keep it up for the six weeks or so they say it takes to get it into a habit.

Pretty good ride on Tanza today

I took him out solo.   He was a bit nervous but did not feel like he was on the verge of getting overwhelmed.   I had so do some "ha ha ha" and singing when I realized I was overly tense in my body.   I was half expecting a 4-wheeler to pop over a hill and send Tanza into a spook and bolt but tense rider is not helpful.  Thankfully I remembered the ha ha ha and then singing from centered riding clinics and was able to relax enough to ride halfway decently.    Feels good for getting him going and having a good mount although I may have to scale back some tentative early season rides I had thought I might try to go to.   How did it get to be mid March already?   

Riding update

I rode Sadie 4 miles on Saturday and got Dad to saddle RazzMo and ride with me and Tanza on Sunday.    Endurance (finishing not competing) pace on Sadie.   Mostly just walked on Tanza.  Razz was a goof and spooking at some things but Dad did make him walk ahead places where Tanza stalled when he was in front.   Tanza does not get too fussed when Razz spooks.  He wanted to boogie for home when we turned around.   This was partly that he just goes Yaay, going home to my buddy Sadie and partly because Razz had just gotten totally goofy about some survey flags or a rock near the road + a car going bye that was making extra noise.

Took a short paddock ride on Tanza this morning.  He was pretty good again.    I had two weeks of not riding because we got snow pack again.   I wasn't suffering much cabin fever which sort of makes wonder if I'm going to get back to really good riding groove but it will probably come once Tanza is ready to go out on trails.

I tried to plant a seed in Dad's mind to go Caribou hunting this year.  "its on my bucket list" but I could just go hog hunting in Texas cuz that is cheaper on my offer to pay for an outfitted hunt for him.  I found a place in Canada that offers a pretty decent price on Caribou hunts and printed out their page so he can call them for details.  

Had RV doc guys out to check out my fridge that quit working in my weekend LQ trailer.   We are going to replace it.  Whew its expensive to put in those RV fridges but I decided I did want to go ahead and do it rather than just using a cooler.  

Listening to Bibi

And I'm thinking "Americans stand with Israel but I fear we have a CiC who does not; and a feckless congress who gives in rather than challenge the historic first black prezzy."   I hope this speech and some pressure from voters will give congress some spine and force EarLeader to back off .   Its deeply disturbing that Pakistan has  nuclear bombs; having Iran get them, with crazy theocratic rulers that WANT an apocalypse, God help us all. 

  At least North Korea's crazy ruler doesn't think he'll bring about salvation by starting an apocalypse, having some misgivings about dying is a big rationalizing force.    Having some crazy loons who think billions of people dying brings about paradise getting access to weapons that can kill millions should scare everyone.   Its scary in itself that the Ivy League grads at  State Dept and elsewhere in power here cannot understand that yes there are people in charge in the ME who do have that evil cult belief; but instead think that they have to save gaia from CO2.