RTS- WTF?!

If you are offended by WTF its your problem for putting in the words btw.

I signed up for soldiers angels shortly after POTUS BS was elected. I like to use his adopted last name. I was spurred to get active in supporting our soldiers when I felt they no longer had a CIC who would have their back.

Monday I had a notice, labeled from a different post office than my local one that I had a RTS package. I called them and they said it was probably just a floating temp had used their forms on our route. So today after my chiro visit I walked acrossthe street to the post office. I was fearing it would be my last care package but thinking it should not be since I have not had letters returned and the customs form indicates the package should be treated as abandoned if delivery fails. Well its NOT my last care package, its the one I sent on Feb 17th!

Stewpid ARMY, I can buy that some cards had sticky labels that came off and could not be returned but I was out of labels and had just hand written my return address on some letters. And even if they closed down the FOB where my solider was they could have effing handed the package to someone at Bagram or something. the SA group has been pretty good I think and I have had emails that the unit is coming home, stop mail etc, but of course with my package back, plus never having heard from any of the soldiers I've had despite including email and cell ph address for texts my paranoia is up that nothing in the past 1.5 years has gone to an actual soldier overseas.

Plus I had sent fudge in this package, I cant eat much of it, trying to get back to my proper weight so I have to just share it with my mooching, lefty liberal co-workers now. GAAAH, I thought I had sent something nice to a patriot and now its going in the maws of a bunch of big state libs. I am so not a happy camper right now.

Got summer tires on the car today

It REALLY feels summery too, I had the AC on periodically driving to work afterwards. I hope the car runs long enough to justify the tires and extra rims. I have to talk to dad, we have got to do some more fencing. I want him to be onboard for how we should proceed and helping rather than just trying to make something work myself. Three options, 1 just get a working charger and a lower strand to keep the dogs from slipping through the paddock back fence into the pasture area and through the pasture fence. 2) put woven wire on the back of the paddocks. 3) put woven wire on the pasture fence along the road.

Damm dogs are trying to give me an ulcer. The neighbors I met at the caucus were walking as I fed. I chatted with S, they had 2 horses and a daughter riding one horse, on their way back home I think a horse knocked her DH over, or possibly he just tripped. Mia got in a snit because they were stopped right at the corner where the woven fence ends and she had to run out barking. *I'm fairly sure that the fall happened first, but not 100% positive and regardless I was not happy to have Mia charging out to make the situation worse. I was heading out there on foot with Ole on lead, then decided to grab the car and offer the guy home, he walked a bit and then needed to wait and clear his head. By the time I got back with the car he was almost to the corner, damm Mia had been trailing him rather than came home on her own, grrrr stupid dog.

Then I rode about 2 hrs later. Mia stayed back from the gate and I figured she was going to stay home since its quite warm today. NO, the dammed hard headed white dog came through the paddock and slipped through the fences. When I cut her off from turning left at the subdivision road she turned around and went west. She stayed west instead of going north at the utility road and I did not turn north to see if she'd stick with me when she saw I wasn't going her way. Had to cut her out of the driveway she likes so well down that way and then their little dog slipped through his fence and came out to be all tough guy -well maybe all curious guy is more accurate. I did a quick dismount and got the lead on Mia just a bit after little dog starting sniffing her. Had to grab Ole too as he came up to check on the fun.

The dogs were reasonably tolerant of the little dog, which they damm well should have been since we hardly ever even go that way-- but trying to lead a horse by her bridle and two dogs on one lead and discourage a pesky dog from following but not sound too mad lest Ole decide he has to save me was stress I did NOT need. Little dog finally went home although not into his fenced house yard where owner was calling him. He was little but just as ornery as hard headed Mia.

By the time I got home it was almost lunch time and I did not want to interrupt the lunch of the family from the morning incident so I didn't swing by on my way to work/tire errand to apologize and find out exactly what happened. This is why if *I* picked out the dog for the family to have it would have been ONE COUCH POTATO, older rottweiller (well its CLOSE on spelling dammit.) I freaking hate having dogs that want to come along when I ride, I curtail my mileage or speed or route for them so dammed often, it is NO way to condition for endurance. Lousy clingers.

Willing spirt, weak flesh .

Actually that seems backwards, I wasn't physically hindered from friday goals, I just gave in to temptation to browse my usual web sites on sunday rather than reading/reviewing the science paper. I did start the paper at least.

I stacked some hay on saturday, We didn't get any rain but it was windy, and it was a cold old wind, spit just a bit of sleet for 2 minutes as I finished walking the dogs saturday morning and got the horses their grain. I read through to chap 37 in the KingofOne online novel - I was trying to talk myself into spreading the reading out but I just kept going back until I was out of chapters.

I'm wondering if the writer will take a break at this point. Many of his chapters were cliff hangers. This one could be an End of book 1 chapter if the final novel gets written that way. I will probably try to wait until he has several more chapters if he/she continues writing because I prefer to read that way. At this point I can think about the direction I would take the story if I were writing it. There is a bit of temptation to share my idea but I don't want to distract with tangents if the author has a vision of where they are going.

I had a decent ride sunday on Shade. 7 miles. I really need to be riding 15-20 miles sessions SOON to prep for the early ride season I want to have, but it was a fun ride and that is the key thing right now. Cindy got a good curry session too, I cleaned up the paddock a bit, where it was wet and mushy after last weeks wet weather and moved AJ's feeder, so he wont be standing in his deep wet spot. I'll clean it sometime but it was too wet and heavy to mess with this weekend, and at SOME point his actual owner needs to start dragging herself out to do that stuff. She thinks she picked up a virus, probably did since her immune system took such a beating trying to fight the infection? before she finally convinced oral surgeon to pull the troublesome implants and she did have a bounce for about a week after the implants were gone.

If it weren't for spam comments ...

I'd have no comments at all. Sorry this isn't really a pity party post, that old song "If it weren't for bad luck ...." from that old HeeHaw show popped into my head, because I did have to remove a couple spam comments today. My blog is just my online journal, I leave it open for public viewing, but I'm not writing FOR anyone and I know it.

I have been reading the coolest novel. I'm sure its not a brand new idea but the author publishes it online in a blog. I am going to get to the end of what he has written and be wishing for more. I can read it like I would a novel for now because I only found it when he had 36 chapters done already. So I haven't had to wait for the next section to be written but I think its still a work in progress and I'll probably catch up to the author this weekend since its supposed to be rainy tomorrow. It will be hard to wait for the new chapters. I wonder if the author gets enough donations for this to be a financial viable publishing method?

I did send him $7, its what I would spend on a book, I always wait for the paperback version for novels. Since the author gets most of that minus the paypal cut instead of whatever authors get after a publish takes a big overhead it may well work out even with folks who just read and don't chip in. Its really cool as a reader because I was able to read several chapters and decide its good before paying.

OK yes I AM going to include the link for my possible lurkers.
Alone King of One

I have been working on updating the web page for the sites I added to my processing at work. I wanted something that was not mind intense, but typing in #'s into the web page was mind numbing. I had to take a break twice. I MUST take home the paper I agreed to review and not just do fun reading this weekend at home. Perhaps I will take the weekend off from surfing for any news bits, it all seemed depressing today. A couple days of just fiction, clouds of shedding horse hair and science minutia, should fill my time, and I can always stack some hay and clean out my closet/organize my stuff that is not in that closet to make room for the closet to be emptied so it can get its new flooring as well.

Jogged a wee bit

This morning with the dogs and again on my afternoon walk. My scale finally showed up the extra eating I thought I was doing this weekend --or it was a blip but it did goad me to burn a few more calories. I had to fight not to weigh myself again after the morning dog walk etc. I think a weekly average of daily weights is way more accurate and less deflating than a weekly weigh in with the dips and blips I get, but I have to watch myself. I could easily go OCD and start weighing myself multiple times a day and then taking diuretics or something to get rid of blips when I'm suddenly 2 lbs more than I whatever I was trending at.

Just sent $10 to Pelosi's oppenent John Dennis. Happy Birthday San Fran Nan. I hope he raises a million or more today. I cant think of a more perfect message than if the witch herself gets defeated this fall.

Yesterday I mailed a donation to Buck. I hope CO bucks the slide to socialism and elects him. We HAVE had conservative senators from this state. I had been thinking oh Norton is it, she's getting all the contributions and she is okay but Buck led in the caucus straw poll so maybe we can get the most conservative candidate after all. And I sent $5 to Stupak's opponent in MI. He has become a serious candidate with the backlash over Stupaks weaseling. I'm going to have to watch my budget with all this campaign contributions but if the marxists are not stopped my savings will either be inflated away or confiscated anyway and then they will come after the toys *pickup and trailer are bad for the environment .... * and the WY land after that, and probably the horses themselves so it is time to get serious about peacefully defending my rights.

I have to decide for my house of representatives district. I have not found the straw poll results for that and I am conflicted on who is the best choice there. But any of them is far and away preferable to Markey.

I rode tuesday morning.

Took the hardheaded white dog and the OCD/ADD striped dog. Mia the hardhead had to be herded to stay out of a driveway. I've had various visions of ideal rides, herding cattle on my own ranch as I was growing up, endurance or trail rides in scenic vistas more now --herding dogs through semi-rural suburbia has never been a dream. I DO like that Shade will do this for me and its still saddle time and keeps me sane, but its not THIS IS WHY I HAVE HORSES riding.

Tuesday night it snowed hard, driving home from work was a bear, and I was really glad that Sergey urged/reminded me to head home early, there was some SLOW traffic getting out of Boulder, but the empty roads were so crappy I was only going 1/2 speed or less too and I don't think the snow plows got to the roads until early morning on wednesday. So yesterdays morning exercise was just tromping thru snow to feed and some arm workout getting some snow off of trees with the longing whip. It worked fairly well to get high up in the tree and dislodge some snow but my forearms were killing me. Dad went out with the big garage broom and got more snow off the fir trees by the house. The cottonwoods and russian olives were budding and had some extra snow but not horrible and it was warming up and the snow falling off by 11 am. It was pretty nice yesterday afternoon, I took a quick walk from work. Its not quite a serious workout groove, but I have gotten to where I really want that afternoon walk to clear my head after sitting at the cpu monitor.

Today I drove the dogs to my park and walk spot. Mia did not go very far, but I jogged most of the way back to the car so felt good about getting blood circulating at least. Ole was playing with his abandoned irrigation pipe in the CRP, I guess after I made him leave the visiting cat in the hay this morning he really needed to fixate on something. I went home, grained the horses and he was finally heading back home when I drove back. I think its good I never had kids, the amount of interaction the dogs demand drives me crazy some days. Horses are happy to be with the herd on days I don't have time to mess with them.

Ole had better stop acting like a demoncrat politician

Refusing to listen to the people who work and pay to keep things going. Dammed dog, I could TELL he heard me calling, he stopped and glanced at me. Then he figured I can't catch up to him on foot so he friggin ignored me till I came back with car after taking Mia home. I can give the effin dog a permanent dirt nap, and if he keeps virtually flipping me off I may break one of these days and rid myself of the aggravation once and for all. I had taken the dogs for a pretty good walk at that point and Ole got a double run yesterday, dad took the dogs with the car so I could ride w/o having to deal with Mia and Ole also went with me and Shade.

OTOH all I can do to the friggin dirty politicians is try to make sure they have to find a new job in January but they have already passed my tipping point and I will find a small way to do that every day just so I can say 'TAKE THAT you SCUM!'

In happier news I had a nice ride on Shade yesterday. I'm still stuck in my rut of riding about 1/2 as far as I should but she is shedding away, feels strong, positively glowed in the sun, I don't know how I ended up owning such a beauty both in body and spirit, very blessed I am there.

No whiners allowed

The health scam bill passed. And I too am a bit bummed, all that energy and internet donations to elect Brown in MA on Jan 20th as the filibuster vote to block it and we are stuck with the Dec 24th senate bill. But on the other hand I don't want to hear about how this is it, finito, America becomes a stupid socialist democracy from now on. Yes those of us who value freedom and liberty are in a tight spot. Way too many people like me slumbered and let the commies creep in to our schools, news media and government and they are creating a god awful mess.

But we are an ingenious nation. I refuse to join in any pity parties. Was it inevitable that a bunch of amateurs would lose to the worlds super power in 1776? Was it inevitable that German technology + the Japanese culture of death would overwhelm the pacifist weakened nations especially after the devastating sneak attack at Pearl Harbor? Yes its going to take more blood and treasure to defeat the enemy now, because the slumbering giant did not take action early. A painful amount -- But I believe the slumbering giant of the American spirit, middle class .yada yada HAS been awakened now and we WILL grit our teeth and win the battle because frankly failure is not an option. There isn't another USA who can come in and rescue us if we let despots seize everything we hold dear.

ARGHH -- Markey flopped her vote to yes

I need to find out what it takes to file FCC complaints. All the local alphabet networks are Democrat propaganda organs. I am taking it extra personal because I was one of the idjits that voted for that lying witch. I was sold on her as being a business women and I expected she would be a moderate voter not a Pelosi shadow. Dumb dumb dumb dumb and feeling grudgeful about it. I don't tend to hold grudges, I let the sack of shit 'charity' umbrella group off the hook once I had my money back from the paypal complaint I filed.

But these crazies marxists have GOT to be stopped. I am sick and tired of constant drip of media bias, its personal because they had ME going --not wanting communism but thinking badly of Bush, and heck I was sold on Barry until just a few months before the nov elections when I got my butt in gear and did some independent research, etc etc. I really don't like being played for a damn fool and they played me pretty well.

WooHoo I rode this morning

Then my first post got lost in cyber space. It was fun, I rode in paddock yesterday, the dogs were preoccupied with mom's farrier being out. They think the hoof trimmings are a good doggie treat. Today Mia was parked RIGHT by the gate, and Ole was shadowing me. So I headed Mia's usual route and she turned back after only .6 miles, too warm for her I suppose. She'll be happier tomorrow when its snowing. Worked for me because Shade is still a big lookie lou when we go that way and today someone was working on their motocross course in their back lot and Shade was really sure she couldn't just go by that.

So we put Mia in the yard and went about 1.2 miles the other direction and back. Ole went on the 2nd leg so he should be ready to snooze all afternoon in the house. I think I have finally licked the weird processing bug I introduced friday grabbing an updated coordinate file from an IGS processing center. It was overflowing array bounds and the stinking subroutines were not crashing they were producing garbage results. Gaah its a bad feeling when you have clobbered your routine processing and are desperately looking for the cause so you can get things working again.

My coffee tastes salty

And so did the water and tea I drank earlier. I don't know if its zinc residual from the lozenge I took in the middle of the night after waking with a sore throat or post? nasal drip down my throat. I don't really feel sick at least. I am in my riding tights already and will ride Shade in a wee bit, but may make it a shorter ride.

Caucus was ok. I got my precincts table to suggest a change to one of the weld county GOP resolutions. They had "we are opposed to stem cell research" I got my table to submit that it should be "opposed to embryonic stem cell research." Maybe I can get involved in the party over the next two years and then suggest that the resolutions should be re-ordered. They had some defense of marriage and stuff in there which I am not really for, but not ready to fight for take it out, but it should be behind support of troops, 2nd amendment rights, fiscal responsibility. IMO that morals type of thing is fringe stuff,

I would like more states to copy VT and have civil unions. The gay rights activists want 'marriage' now but IMO that is going too far. But a basic civil union that gives partners medical power of attorney, heir to any estate if there is not a will, those kind of basic legal things that marriage automatically provides for an inexpensive license fee and simple ceremony and same sex partners in 45? states now have to spend $$$ having a lawyer draw up individual legal documents --to me it seems like something that would strengthen communities without diminishing marriage. Heh, maybe I should move to Vermont, yeah its the home of Howard Dean, but Colorado sure has its share of commie flakes.

Of course I am also of the opinion that in this day and age spousal benefits should be eliminated. Family benefits could extend to a spouse when there are children in the household but if a marriage is just two adults and no children there is no reason both adults cannot be responsible for their own health care and whatnot.

Caucus today

I did not get to the office extra early but am going to take PTO and attend my local caucus. I'll probably be disappointed as I'm a big weenie wallflower at public events, but I NEED to start getting more involved, it sucks getting to Nov. and going 'these are my only options?'.

So another day of not riding. I hope I can get a good ride on Shade tomorrow. One delay today was taking the dogs for a walk. I jogged some, to the point of sweating. I think I dodged another cold/flu virus. I felt a bit stuffy but not bad. I think maybe the trees are flowering already. I am so glad I don't have hay fever, loving the horses as I do. Plus the tree season is so much shorter.

Nice sunny 5.5 mile ride yesterday

And a cold wind blowing today. Good day for indoor stuff, I need to peel myself away from the internet and just tackle a few short tasks. Shade felt wonderfully strong yesterday. I felt like I should go twice that distance but I was scared to overdo things, and I've been getting cold feet about the ride in TX. I need to see if I can trailer pool with someone. Even more than last year I do feel like I should carpe diem lest the eco-facists realize their wet dreams of $10/gallon fuel and outlawing riding or most fun activities on a bunch of the public lands. OK, I am going to give the dogs a run and horses their grain.

OK, I'll be kicking myself if I dont ride

And tomorrows weather is nasty and we are forecast for a bit of cold front and some chance of rain or if I feel really carpy tomorrow. I feel good now but I had to sit down for a few minutes this morning. I was about to spread peanut butter on my toast and felt like I would fall over in a second. So I need to stop typing and finish my tea and go. Dam dog already had a run but is pestering me to hurry up. I hope its warm enough Mia will stay home voluntarily and I dont have to tie her up to get through the gate.

WooHoo, car repair bill was under 500

And that included around $200 for the scheduled maintenance. I have been blessed recently with vehicle problems occurring close to home or with help around and not costing horrible amounts to fix. Thank you Lord, I really do appreciate that.

I (so far) have managed to resist snacking temptations at work. I understand S breaking out the girl scout cookies yesterday so she didn't eat as many but what led other people to think they had to bring in pastry and dark chocolate with ginger to pile on top of the leftover cookies? Oh well I had 1 thin mint cookie close enough to dark chocolate to be unappealing and 2 pieces of the ginger choc. and reduced consumption of my usual dark chocolate by 2 pieces. Took a leisurely afternoon walk as well. Tomorrow I will air out my bedroom unless I forget but it needs it so hopefully I remember. Been taking zinc, feeling like I'm running a slight fever which I'm encouraging to cook the blasted viruses.

Friday fun is limited to snarking today

I woke up this morning and thought I'd dodged virus bullet but I'm overheating easily and generally feeling like early virus stage. So no riding today, I took the dogs for a run but I just drove. Checked out the horse BB I still remain a member of. I used to really feel connected to several of the members but now reading it -especially the non horse stuff is mostly like reading dear Abby. Good for self esteem by comparison (wink). Plus there are a few people who post things there that I still am interested to read.

Anyhoo-Todays esteem booster is someone had changed paypal information which is admittedly a PITA, I tried and gave up doing that at one time, but they posted several items at once to ebay and ebay had their old paypal addy so buyers had to go through bunches of hoops to get her paid instead of using the pay now button on ebay. And she is whining loudly about the couple of buyers that didn't make it through that obstacle course. LOL, there was a time early on in this BB's life I could have pointed out (if I could find polite wording) that I think its reasonable for buyers to expect that SELLERs would have their shit together especially if one sees several other items from the seller which kind of implies the seller is an ebay regular and not a novice. But that time on the BB is long gone so hear I am just snarking to myself.

Can I get a little cheese ..

To go with this whine? I have a sore throat. I was hoping it was just from calling the rotten dog but it has persisted all afternoon at the office and I am also getting my usual 'I feel off' sensation that often precedes definite cold/flu symptoms. Waah, I was just getting into a bit of health and beauty groove. If I toughen my will just a bit I can resist the 'comfort foods will make me feel better' temptation and still eat right, but exercise will be sharply curtailed cuz overdoing that when I'm sick tends to make me feel like shit. Of course this happens the very next day after I sent the full bottle of vitamin C to 'my' soldier in Afghanistan; and he'll probably be thinking WTF as spring will probably be in full bloom by the time it gets there. Oh well I still have some zinc and am taking that. Hope it does the trick with lessening severity and duration. I don't want to go through '7 days if you treat symptoms aggressively or 1 week if you do nothing' routine. I wont do nothing, its my nature to try to stamp out the virus and if that fails and I really get sick I take nyquil and knock myself out.

I am so over that dog

He has gotten a walk every day for 3 weeks. The 1 or 2 times I didn't squeeze it in Dad took him and some days he's gotten 2 walks. And he still took off from the fenced but not dog proof extended farmyard while I was feeding horses this morning. I drove a bit looking for him and he didn't turn up. I halfways hope he's been stolen or SSS'd. I feel so betrayed when he pulls this shit after we've been making extra effort to give him exercise etc. If he finds his way home he is just going in the little backyard when I feed for a while and maybe when I ride too. Rotten rotten dog. I do not need the stress of worrying that he is annoying neighbors etc.

At least I already had a mechanics appointment...

I turned my car off last night when I opened the gate, just coasted through the gate w/o starting it, had to wait a minute for Mia to come back in the yard, get back in the car and it wont start. Dad towed me to the mechanics, I declined to try push/pull starting of the car. I suppose I should have tried it as more diagnostic information. Oh well, the mechanic can probably get diagnostics anyway.

I took the dogs for a walk when we got back from the mechanics, then elected to have a sandwich and some tea while the flooring installer finished up giving mom and dad an estimate rather than asking him to move his car or trying to wiggle mom's car around so I could out. But WHY do people almost magnetically draw up behind whatever car I am going to be taking somewhere? My personal Murphy's law I think, LOL. I know there are lots worse types of Murphy I could be dealing with. It was snowing and now looks to have turned to rain. I think I will most likely skip taking an afternoon walk today. Maybe I'll do a couple laps of the building hallways and stairs later.

Rode 7 miles yesterday

I suppose I should thank Ole. I had wanted to add some mileage instead of going home after getting to a corner of a 3.5 mile loop but I thought Ole was shortcutting for home and I needed to make sure he went straight home. Well Ole had not taken a shortcut for home and I ended up repeating my whole loop looking for him. Never did see him, but I saw the deer/elk? leg bone he left about 0.4 miles from home and then he was at the gate when I was putting Shade away so at least he wasn't pestering someone in the subdivision and I didn't have to drive around looking for him.

I had a quick break, then I grabbed a lead and walked Ole back to fetch the leg. I felt that it had caused me so much anxiety that I was going to make Ole bring it all the way home. He got most of the way home and went in the ditch to chew on it and really thought he was going to ignore me but I yanked on the lead and made him get moving again, jogging behind him yelling 'ignore the burn, dont be a wussy boy .....' I needed some comic relief playing snarly football coach for a minute.

Finally located my scale --I had left it in the porch after weighing some hay bales last summer. Dad told me where it was after I had gone looking for it in the garage last night. Ugh 12 lbs up from where I was maintaining w/o having to fight any last summer. Going to take several weeks to get all that off, so time to take the dogs for a misty walk to aid in the flab be gone efforts.

Friday Fitness

There was zero snow or rain overnight. It was cold and foggy when I got up and it rained barely enough to settle the dust before 9. I was dinking on the laptop, being lazy with gray weather and Ole was pestering. Spoilt spoilt dog, but I did decide I'd make it a good fitness walk for me day since I had planned on not riding and wasn't motivated by the weather to change that.

As I was pulling up to the non maintained county road I usually drive down .2 miles then park in an approach while I walk a semi with a box trailer pulling up the road. I thought the driver had gotten crazy GPS directions since I know the GPS and mapquest databases do try to send people that way. Well I walked the dogs, doing lots of 'marching' and throwing in toe rising and even a bit of jogging almost in place while Mia did her snooping around away from home. My knee was barely bothering at all, YAY!. We went quite a ways, then I was doing the power walk to keep up with Mia's heading home pace and the semi comes up behind me again. Its a driving school but I'm still not sure why they choose to go down this 2 track road that is rutted and forces speed to stay under 15mph. They passed me and then caught up to Mia and decided to stop cuz they couldn't see her. Mia does not move out of the road until she absolutely has to, she is a) avoiding burrs that stick in her furry paws, and b) is hard headed anyway. The instructor explained to me they were waiting because of the dog (think thats what she said) as I went by the truck on the passenger side. In interest of not holding them up more than necessary I jogged a fair way up the gradual hill back towards the car even though I was sweating in my windbreaker and the nearly 100% humidity although it was cool temps. The good news is I was not getting winded but I did walk the last bit because my knee was starting to complain and I was feeling a bit overheated. *note to self, run upstairs and put a bra on next time you may be doing any jogging.

I took a short afternoon walk at work today too, I wore my coat and even my ear band as it was chilly, got a bit warm right at the end again even though I was only walking. I hope that means my metabolism was cooking off some fat.

Ran today

I galloped on Shade and when I took my walk this afternoon I did 4 very short jogging sections. Thanks to friends and bloggers I am being inspired to be more active --thank goodness. If I don't have a late night binge I also ate pretty healthy and moderated calories today and yesterday. Please please let my body be triggered to release the weight gained the last few months sooner rather than later. I am going to have to wear mostly dress pants until then as I only have one pair of non ratty jeans that are not too tight, arghhh, I hate dress pants but I don't want to buy fat jeans, I want to lose this blubber. I'll break down and wear the ratty casual pants before I buy new fat jeans. I don't have that strong of vanity but I've been feeling fat and icky lately. I sure wish I had changed my bad ways in the fall when I knew I was snacking way too much and often on rich foods but it didn't seem to be changing my clothes size. Oh well, I did not and now I'll have to fight the battle of the bulges.

Trying to drop my holiday weight gain

I talked to D last night. She is all excited, a friend of hers she met online has asked D to be a bridesmaid. The wedding will be in Florida in April 2011. D is using the excitement to push herself fitness wise. I was inspired by that to take an extra long walk with the dogs this morning. Kept Mia in the car until I parked it so she'd go farther and while Mia was dinking around heading out I did a bunch of bent knee 'marching' to get some toning going and did some arm movements too. I cherish that I at least have the illusion that no one sees me doing silly stuff like that. Shrug if anyone did see, I'm trying to exercise the dogs so they'll better neighbors but it won't happen if I cant multitask it with something else I want to do.

I took a short walk at work today too. Maybe I can get that to be a habit, I know it can only help to get the blood flowing again later in my day. Tomorrow I will ride in the morning so the office break would be my only exercise. I must remember to call my mechanic and get an appointment for my car's service. The service engine light has been on for ages but it seems to come on a few hundred miles before every oil change is due so I have started to just ignore it. But it will be at the 100,000 mile point so I'm sure the car is actually due for something beyond the routine oil change.

I don't think it will amount to anything but we have snow forecast for friday and early next week so I am again putting off even emailing to set up riding dates. I'm a big weenie for towing if it might be icy and don't want to make plans just to cancel them. But I should contact L, she might be up for a shine and shine only meet and ride at Chatfield.

Little ride this morning..

Good things. Shade is rounding, we would not score well on any dressage tests, no consistency in staying rounded yet, this is both lack of rider skill and lack of practice and muscling for her but I feel like progress is being made. I took the dogs for a pretty good walk yesterday. I really hoof it up the gradual hill because I don't want Mia to get too much head start before I get back to the car and can catch up to her. Ole did not stick with me riding today but I think he came directly home after he finally got his fill of trying to get the rabbit out of the pipe in the CRP we ride alongside. It feels like spring already, horses are shedding, its barely barely been freezing overnight etc.

Bad things. I may have a low grade cold or secondary infection. I seem to have a weak yucky taste on my tongue. I keep wanting to eat something to chase it away but I haven't been too overboard with cramming food in. I feel very fat which is helping moderate the eating but I have been trying to moderate my eating since the holidays and get a bit more exercise and I don't feel like I'm gaining any ground. Guess I'll have to do daily weights and chronicle exactly what I eat for a while. Shade had white snot and seemed easily winded when I rode in the paddock. I hope its just seasonal and not problems with the hay I'm feeding. Its not bad now but I worry that the allergies will get chronic or severe. I'm a worrier its what I do. Mia is blowing out undercoat and I fear I am not keeping up and she'll have a lot of matting and we'll just have to have her clipped again in a couple of months. Predicting snow on thursday night. Probably another no biggie, most have been mostly south or west of us and this one will probably be north from forecast and is fast moving so temps may rebound by sunday.

My test processing is failing. It seems to get flummoxed when a new clock file is made while the one program is going through all the different data arcs. I think I'll just change things so that the clock file used to compute the orbit is passed to other programs that use a clock file (old processing computed a clock for each set of data) So I have a project but its irritating to have the failure when the program should theoretically be fine regardless of whether a new file comes in.

The Dems are talking about ramming their healthscare through (who benefits if they succeed and Cloward Piven the U.S. economy? China needs us to be able to buy stuff at least short term, Russia? The Islamists want chaos so they can impose a caliphate? BLECH. I should email every primary candidate and ask them if they will make repeal a priority if Obamacare passes. Oh and Lindsey Graham (R) is partnering with some Dem's to redo carbon cap and trade. Well the house bill on that is a disaster but sheesh they need to just let it die, having a republican bring it up is painful. Republicans are NOT supposed to attack our economy dammit.