Couple more steps to get my pet code working.

I played with that instead of doing home improvements or decluttering yesterday.   Good thing I did spend weekend time as I had to redo some things I thought were working fine that only happened to work because I was running session A out of A-X for the test case.  

First world problem?  I almost hate doing laundry.   I haven't analyzed why that is.  Seems silly to dislike it so with the modern washing machine doing almost all of the work but still I do.   Okay, I know a big part of the dislike is dealing with Dad's laundry, and the laundry room is also his bathroom.  Blech, I hate that,   I wish the 70's home builders had not been so niggardly with water pipes.   Not even two full bathrooms for a 4 bedroom  house and then the 3/4 bath on the main floor is also the laundry room.   Sooo stupid.  

My HMO had a little piece in their email "decision fatigue"  BINGO.  That is why it is so hard to declutter.  Trying to think what to do with stuff gets fatiguing.   But alas I already do most of their tips.  "just eat the same breakfast,  simplify what to wear."  So it is back to my thing of "you don't have to make a ton of decisions on "what to do with this item?" in one day or weekend,  just make at least one, up to a few but keep pecking at it every day.   I burned out on sorting pictures and need to force myself to get back to that to avoid having extra clutter in the downstairs office.  

Argghhh,    I didn't preserve LDM from the old system.   Hopefully IT can install it w/o spending too much time.   Makes me want to cry that I didn't preserve the whole /ops directory from before the update.  But spilled milk.  If the boss doesn't shut down IT installing LDM for me I'll be able to resume data flow soon.  If he shuts it down I'll just apologize to the folks that used our data and after a day or three of high angst I'll probably enjoy the reduction in workload and stress. 

Whew,  IT was able to install LDM.  Now I *only* need to get the configurations duplicated at least as far as functionality.   I should be able to get that done; might take some dogged persistence but I have that when I want to and I do want this to work.   I need to set aside my annoyance at the bosses to be able to focus on anything so will make a shopping run after the team meeting and then tackle computer shit. 

A week when I hate my work(place)

We had to buy RH licenses for some PGD hosts and the bosses way of estimating clocks.   The cost effective way to do that was to buy a group of licenses that is 8 more than are/will be needed.   I had inquired of IT about just putting RH on the cpu for my pet ground based project and they informed me of this.   BUT the big boss says no go unless the not actively funded project would pay part of the group license AND  "Weren't we going to end this ground based processing community service effort"  ending was NEWS to ME.   and the boss that was part of the project never responded.  

So being a stubborn redneck red head I am spending hours updating codes so the project will work like our orbital processing does on the open source OS.  And I will figure most of that as educational etc and not charge it to the residual funds only project because pffffttttttt them.   I had expected I would need to do this updating, but I just had to be 'clever' and find out from IT if it would indeed be too costly to just put the licensed vs open source OS on the CPU and when I heard "oh we have extra licenses and it doesn't take very long for us to do this" I thought that would be the most efficient route.   Wrong.   Even if the big boss wasn't being snotty about can't use an excess license without $$ it probably was going to take a fair bit of work for IT and the software engineer to get things to build.  I guess I figured that would be easy peasy since boss built things on his clock systems but he did do one as a build from source code tarballs not an rpm and then just did scp   -r to the other systems, no building of rpms like the regular processing uses.  

OK, this is no biggie other than I'm having a longer outage than I had expected with my 'products'.

But the overall work bosses have decided to mandate covid vaccines by Mar 1st, even though sundown Joe's EO demanding them for federal contractors has been blocked until Mar 1 and by then only mutated variants that amount to a basic cold virus will be around.  Sooo retarded, and so much for the "legal tells us we HAVE to comply with the EO" excuse for deciding that they the employer, not the employees, get to make medical decisions.

I'm not out of a job on Mar 1st cuz they already gave me a religious exemption but I'm still pissed that they are proceeding with the big state nanny move and especially since covid is burning out and the current vaccines do fuck all against the current covid strains.   I guess I should be happy about their mask dropping.   The thing is I didn't want to have to job search or become an entrepreneur, that was why I applied for the exemption last year, and I still don't want to, I  am barely keeping the house livable and the horse pens semi safe now.  I don't see where I'd find the time or energy for a job switch but health insurance is stupid expensive, I feel like I'd end up pretty pinched if I tried to just do an early retirement almost10 years before I'm eligible for medicare. 

Is it nap time?

 So tired today.  Didn't sleep real well, stupid burn kept me awake a bit, thankfully not all night long, then I woke up and was going to doze back off but realized I hadn't switched the one caster so IT can rebuild the caster we are hosting.   My pet project system will not work as I had it before with its OS upgrade.  I need to ask IT how much it would be to make it the paid OS that is on a few critical systems.  If I am way overestimating the cost that would get things back up more quickly.   

Two days later and same question.   I'm tuckered out after 1 load of laundry and a bit of sorting and labeling of 20 year old pictures.  Some of them are fun memories.  Many are frustration because I don't remember or know who the people are.  Dad can't see well enough to recognize if he even would remember the faces.  Oh well, I'm labeling the few I know and moving on.   The reward is mostly to stop having cardboard boxes of old pics in their envelopes from the developers, memories of actual film, plus empty photo boxes by getting the pics into the photo boxes.  I want to get to a point where I don't halfway envy people who lose everything but their pets in a house fire.  So sick of having clutter everywhere.  

Tearing up.   Now is when the Saturday chess and dress thread was posted.   Fuck the CCP and Fauci and his evil CDC, NIH, etc buddies that magnified the lethality of covid with guidelines against using cheaper viable therapies.   Maybe getting the vaccine would have helped Muse have a mild case and not die, but given all their flip flops and the hiding of data and prohibiting therapies, all trying to push only the vaccines, of course we are skeptical,  and plenty of vaccinated folks have died too.   I don't even play chess and not at all a fashionista but I loved the thread, doodling with the beginner chess problem, looking at the dresses, and pics of Melania and princess Kate in their high fashions.   I had to close up the hobby thread tab today.   I could have enjoyed it a wee bit in place of a movie thread but I'm not artistic enough to craft for a hobby, and the grief over losing Muse is too raw to even distract myself reading about folks who can do dioramas and train setups and things and I didn't want to be rude to JJ and the crafters who are talking about their hobbies. 

I've been sorting through some old photos

I should have done it several years ago.  Should have made mom and dad look at pics and try to ID people on the unlabeled pics.  Oh well.     I'm doing my usual fairly scatter shot approach of pecking at one thing for a bit and then doing something completely different.   They say to focus on one area and complete that task or room, closet whatever.  That is supposed to be more emotionally satisfying.  But my experience is that I'll just shift some stuff to another area because I'm not ready to decide what to do with it if I'm trying to get one spot completely cleared.   Doing just a little at a time, forcing myself to find just ONE item to deal with on a bad day worked better for me when I did this a couple years ago and hopefully will work out again on this push.   I also started putting obits in plastic sleeves in a binder.   I've only done the loose ones from odd areas so far.  I'll have to buy more sleeves if I want to do all the obits that way I think.  

Hope this stupid burn on the top of my foot heals up by next weekend.

 I shouldn't whine, I know I'm fortunate that it was not a more severe burn and most of the time when I'm doing something I don't even notice it.  But it does still have periods where it is painful, not just uncomfortable.  And the pain makes me nervous that it won't just heal on its own and I should have gone to the HMO to have it looked at, even though there is zero sign of infection.  

I am having to dig deep to keep on with de-cluttering.  That is why I had paused.  I had gotten rid of most of the obvious junk, burned or shredded mom's patient notes and handouts and things and old magazines and given away most of her nice clothes.    Now it takes more thought, plus it is extra time to sell things that I want to be used.   But I have done some of that.  Selling her weights proved super quick and fairly easy.  If I can get the sheet music a new home that will make me happy.  I've started going through some of the boxes of old photos, writing info that I know and putting them in the unused photo boxes that were in the storage room so at least there isn't double space taken up with shoe boxes of photos and empty nice photo boxes.  

knock wood 94 pounds of stuff will be re-homed this afternoon.

 I put an ad for mom's dumbbells on CL.   Have someone supposed to meet me at TSC at 2:45.  I didn't want to give out my address and have folks coming here.  Getting paranoid I suppose but still, I need to get some feed anyway and the store is easy to find.  Apps still try to send people on a bad route to get to our place so I'm always writing stupid long directions for them,  plus the privacy concern.  

Another stupid clock products fire drill this morning.  But I learned a new bit of info so now I know to have IT make the caster we host into an HA pair and that should remove future issues I hope.  And I was working to try to get clocks working but today I didn't feel like "oh NOES, it is my responsibility to keep this working"   I never wanted to be stuck with the job of trying to maintain data continuity for the stupid clock software.  I hate that software.  It has a stupid pass/fail for selecting sites to use and often will select 30 sites that include 20 with a data gap but 'passed'  and leave 10 or more sites without a stinking gap unused.   STUPID, but is it murkily written obj oriented code, that I can't easily see how to make it smarter.   

Yes!   The guy who was texting about mom's weights showed up.  I donated the $20 I charged for the weights to the school suicide prevention group outside the TSC.   I read somewhere years ago that listing something as free just invites flakes to enquire about it and they don't even show up so its better to charge a small amount even for stuff you just want gone.  I haven't had enough transactions to really say but the few things I have handled that way worked out.

Someone lower the speed on this treadmill before I fully crash and burn

I was not fully lazy last year, just did not do much decluttering, but did tear out some falling down fence and reinforced arena fence, replaced some fence posts, mowed the pasture, did some yard mowing with the riding mower.   I don't know where I'm going to find energy to fix little things, hang pictures, find places to accept excess blankets and shit.  Sell mom's weights and music and so on plus I have to do laundry more often cuz dad's bedding gets to smelling.  Maybe I should look into trying to get someone to come in weekly to deal with that.  I think its probably very difficult to find someone but I might be wrong. 

Last night dad got his car stuck taking Toby for a run and I DID NOT notice until 5+ hours later when I went to feed the horses their late night snack.  Of course he had not grabbed his phone.  He sat in his car for a long time but had started walking for home before I finally realized he hadn't returned from the dog run.  I feel like such a heel for not noticing.  But he is okay, I have to forgive myself for being so stupidly unaware and just move on. 

Today I spilled some my boiling coffee water on my left foot.  Ouch ouch ouch.  It does not feel too bad now, finally went from pain to just discomfort.   I know it is actually a good sign that the nerves were not damaged and were fully firing for an hour even after I got my sock off and ran cold water on the burn, but still "ow ow ow."  And the hyper inflation, crap economy I knew would come with a Biden administration is showing up, stores out of stuff, or spreading good out to not show bare shelf spots and prices of stuff way up. 

Yesterday de-cluttering was physically hard work, as well as mentally

There was a giant lawn bag of rolled up carpet padding foam stuffed behind the water heater downstairs.   Mice were nesting in it.  Yuck yuck yuck.  I got it wrestled out, got some garbage bags over both ends where it was open, just tied at the top and eaten through on the bottom by the mice and duct taped the bags in place and wiped off the excess dust and wrestled it up stairs, into dad's p/u box and then the dumpster.  Also got my heavy dipped gloves and picked up the dead mice that were underneath it and swept up back there.   Also bit of old rolled up carpet that I was sure was also full of mouse piss.  

 Later went on internet and we have field mice, aka deer mice that can carry hantavirus and you are supposed to just mop up with a bleach solution because sweeping can increase inhalation of the hantavirus that is found in mice piss and feces.  Oh well.  Hantavirus is pretty rare.    Still smelled like something dead when I first walk downstairs to clean Tux's litter box and feed him last night.  But progress is being made on removing crap and doing it now gives me the benefit of a nicer living setting vs it being only a monster chore trying to get the place salable later on.   

Today I will probably take it easy.  I want to sew a belt loop on pair of corduroy pants that I got a button sewed on Sunday and I have a set of tabs open:  CL, an animal shelter and a scouting outfit.  If I can get one contacted for donating or one CL ad written it will be good.  I also need to get ahold of the Eq. dentist.  I don't know why I keep punting on contacting him and on getting the horses wormed.   No good reason for procrastinating on either of those things but I seem to have a mental block on both. 

Decluttering is hard

 I don't have a huge problem parting with things.  But I am over the top on wanting to re-home things that I think are still useable vs just putting them in a dumpster and it is bloody hard trying to figure out who to try to give those items to.   

No progress on the "how can I give these disaster blankets (cheap wool) to homeless folks"  Nor have I mustered myself to put mom's sheet music on CL.  But I did finish getting pics from my office cork board put into photo albums and the box on the flower bed.  The tulips did so well last year after being covered with plastic from the patio project dad had done that I decided to cover the flower beds again this year.  I don't know where the plastic sheeting is so I am using cardboard boxes and various dumpster stuff that I figured could serve as winter mulch first and then go in the dumpster this spring.   

Today laundering dad's bedding.  Yuck, but part of the de-cluttering is to make it easier to manage cleaning.  He loves to talk and might actually enjoy the company of being in a nursing home but with their lockdown policies they had last year with covid I'm sure not going to try to nudge him to consider going into one, and if he did go to one then I would have carve out time to visit him, and do 100% of the house and farm care w/o being able to sell and move unless he decided he wanted to get into one in WY or near sis in ND.  

Going to try to declutter again

 I did hardly any decluttering in 2021.  I had gotten rid of stuff that was easy decision to burn it or toss in trash and didn't feel so much like an episode of hoarders even though the house was still pretty cluttered.  I did get some outside stuff done, burned weeds that had been caught in back corners for over a year, had to replace quite a few fence posts, seeded where the utility company made the weed strip, mowed the pasture, cut down trees that died etc. 

But lately there seems to be dead mouse smell from downstairs, so I decided I need to get rid of a bunch of that crap down there, as I can't see dead mouse.  So I'm trying to get back on the get rid of 1 thing every day habit that worked pretty well for me before.  If I try to clear a whole room I'll burn out before I even have one room completely dealt with.  Plus having cleaned out office at work I have to remove clutter upstairs to make room for that stuff.   I did throw away a lot of crap when I packed up the office but its still a lot of books and things that need to go somewhere.  Also I need to make room for Christmas decorations in the storage shed as I don't want to lug it up the ladder to the attic.  I gotRdone getting stuff down without asking dad to help me but my knees were unhappy the next day.  

Nobody loves me, Waah Waah Waah.

Dang I did not START out feeling all weepy, but  feel all whiney after posting a response, even on the big very busy blog to someone going "haven't seen various nics in a while" and one of them was the all lowercase version of my nic;  and then I got zero acknowledgement.   I can't bring myself to go all CAPS and post an attack or an "everybody is ignoring me" tantrum, one of the reasons to have the big busy blog be my social media is because it is big and busy and no like buttons or crap so I won't take it personally when no one directly responds to some drivel I've posted.  I don't need to feed my inner narcissist and realized after I gave it up that FB was a big meal source for my I.N.  

I was all "Well I know they need me, at work, whether they like me or not" cuz I had to fix something this morning.  Sent a quick email about it at 10 am.  At noon the youngster that is officially on call so had to fill out the forms "there is an issue blablabla"   Well he is very young, so probably partied in the NY and is  a bit hungover and I did just dash off the email with minimal details.  

Durnit.  I don't want to give up the big blog but I think I need to step away from it for a bit.  I'm wrecking myself with envy lately when the various IN cliques get to bantering with each other.  So silly of me.  I have a very jerky posting style.  Often I can't resist digitally blurting something out right before I have to go offline for a bit.  And at times when I think I will be around for a conversation if one starts, some work thing I thought I would just check quickly is down so I have to fix that.  So with so often doing the drive by posting I should expect zero to hardly any responses whenever I post.  But sometimes I still want to do the little kid "look at me, look at me" thing.  Well have to stop moping and feed horses.  Farrier is coming tomorrow so I need to drag myself out and feed reasonably early.