Soooo, bro/family blew me off or USPS didn't deliver

I'm too tired and full up with stupid work crap to worry about it right now.

I am stuck sitting in a meeting and the funding agency that made us have this meeting doesn't have their shit together.  WTFF, do they need to have a meeting here before they can be fussed to think about details?   They should be letting us know what they need and be working things out amongst their various branches and not hashing things out at what they called a readiness review for us. 

If THEY need these meetings to figure out what they need to do, they should call them planning meetings so we know not to spend over much time making slides to show them where we are.  Thank you Lord for letting me have a job where meetings are not a large part of my normal work months. 

more whinging

Tanza and Grey have decided they don't care much for their hay and are going to hunger strike to get the hay the other horses are getting.  After getting their teeth done yesterday there is a bunch of hay scattered on the ground instead of eaten.   Maybe this bale was a bit off,  I'd feed them the other hay but some of those bales are grody and I'm leery of giving Tanza all his feed from that field even of the nice bales because of his allergies and me not knowing exactly what grasses are in it.  

He and Grey are both in pretty good weight right now so they can survive a few meals of just picking at their hay.  Ornery buggers,  I will have to out stubborn Tanza on this. 

I got Christmas cards ordered with a picture from our summer trip.  Yay Walgreens.  I used a mail order outfit before but this year they did not seem to have any option to put a personal picture on a card.   Walgreens will print them up this morning.  Hopefully they turn out fairly nice, I ordered quite a few, but maybe we will send to more of the cousins this year and not just older generation.  Decided I can postpone going to the DMV to get replace tags for p/u until tomorrow.   I wrote checks for my brother and family, just have to write them a quick note and pop that in the mail.  Guess I will have to request he let me know it arrived with the rash of non-delivered stuff I've been having. 

Arghhh

I'm getting overly invested in work because I really do want my one boss to successfully win a contract bid/proposal  we are working on.

So today when equine dentist was done quite a bit quicker than I had figured it would take I schlepped on to work instead of taking planned PTO.

It is good in some ways.  I'm found that something I thought I had fixed last night wasn't and am launching some processing which is easier than trying to do from home.  But our big data provider who has had really great uptime for 3-4 years or more that I've been grabbing their data is down, again, after a days long outage over the long weekend at end of November.    Now this is probably not directly going to clobber us on the bid but it doesn't make us look great so I'm just about to have a  head desk minute. 

And I am about ready to go rogue on my other project.  Must remember that I need the job so I can shell out over a grand to get the horses teeth worked on w/o having to sell a kidney.  

Time to do other stuff that I've been procrastinating on.  Time to kick my  inner grinch aside and get started on end of year giving + fandamily shopping and gifting. 

take two fokitalls and don't call me in the morning

Not really, but I need to not have any angst over stuff at work.  No sense in me stressing if the bosses don't care enough to even check/respond to emails and are going to yank my chain with "suppose we should meet today" and then blowing it off 10 minutes later w/o even bothering to let me know xe changed its mind.   Heh I could used to that for gender neutral pronoun even if I think they are brainwashing kids with the BS gender fluidity crapola.  

It was cold the whole 4-day weekend to the point that I not only did not ride, I did not do usual weekend laundry because I don't like to run extra grey water into the horse pen when temps will not go above freezing so its likely to make it icy.  I'd rather the grey water did not run out there at all but  most of the time its fine and I have no desire to do a bunch of retrenching to divert the water to somewhere else.  

I did some work from home but was not too productive.   Did find that ginger tea made with fresh ginger IS nice to make me feel a bit better when dragging with some kind of cold gunk.  That and garlic earrings to clear clogged sinuses feels like its saving me from a minor issue blowing up into a miserable infection.  

shuffling some schedule to ride a bit

I decided to go in and work yesterday because while it was supposed to get warm I didn't think the snow would be melted and nice footing enough before dark to ride.   In exchange I will ride today and tomorrow morning and take 2-3 hours flex time for the weekend effort.

It is supposed to snow on Thanksgiving and be cold the whole 4day weekend so I may drive in and work one of those days too.  Or maybe I'll see if they will give me the VPN software for our home CPU.   I can work better with the the big monitor so I can have multiple screens and check things and copy/paste easily.  There is also the fact that I don't tend to have a work mindset at home, but maybe I could do better at getting one if I was in the home office at the big monitor. 

Still Alive

I even wrote a couple of posts but I was venting and couldn't scrub enough detail to make them public.  

I rode Tanza twice this weekend.   He was pretty good, so I rode him out on Sunday.  We were both pretty tense.  I was trying not to be but he was full on energy and a bit nervous about going out alone and since last time I took him out I fell off I was holding him up and trying to send my tension away but not succeeding all the time.   He is a good horse and the schooling work in one of the pens is good for him anyway.  I made an appointment with an equine dentist.  I'll have him do Grey, Tanza and Sadie and 2 of the other horses TBD.   Shade doesn't need done.  Probably CJ and one of the minis or 2 of the minis. 

Work is busy but not in an Aack way for me lately.   I was moody as a teen last week and now seem to be fighting a cold/sinus thing trying to start.   Trying a new sinus remedy,  putting garlic in my ears.  It seems to be helpful.   Yesterday I was trying to decide if I had only tension headache or some sinus pressure and after buying garlic on way home and using it the headache went away.  Today I have some stiff/sore neck muscles but no pain in front of my head.  

I should change my nic to falls2much

I came off Tanza again Sunday.   Grrrr.   All he did was wheel and bolt and I should have been able to sit through that and pull him up.   And I should have been able to head off the spook completely but I think I projected my concern of his reaction to wind blowing the corn to him so when I decided to turn around rather than have him being goofy he was like "and lets get out of here FAST" 

I'm not quite feeling like I have to sell him and get a fuddy duddy horse, but am quite annoyed with myself.  I might have realized he was going to be very high energy hanging with Grey and getting extra food and not ridden in 2 weeks so maybe I should just stay in the paddocks to begin with but nope, off I went on my still fairy green 5 year old like he was one of the old solid horses.  I keep conflating how well he has done doing LD and the family trail ride as being the same as a lot of wet saddle blankets and training, but I was very careful with him on the trail ride and have even recorded frustrations with his baby mind "aaack I'll die if I get held back from the group" mindset right here on my blog.  

Oh well "horses gonna be the death of me,  BUT WHAT A WAY TO GO"   I ride as a break from mental concentration of work and that is why I trail ride vs showing but I have got to learn to do a bit of thinking with the riding.  I'm getting too old and don't bounce when I hit hard ground.  

Sadie is doing OK with 'slow feeder' hay bag.   It does not seal at top so she is not slowed all the time I don't think and will not be until I add some clips or something so she has to only eat through the netting.   I've been feeding Sadie in hay bag and Lady just in trough, mainly because the 2nd trough keeps getting shoved way away from the fence and I was tired of having to walk out and move it back but I think its also good for Sadie to have to work on her hay so she is not done right away and then just being shooshed from the 2nd hay feeder.  

Now I should get snow tires out and on my car.  It is supposed to snow Thursday and I don't want to drive twisty mountain roads to PITA work review (with tiny 'retreat' aspects) on the "all" season tires that do not have a whole lot of tread.