My vacation was way too short, and I didn't have Tanza in good enough shape

It was still good to be away from the hamster wheel.  I scribed for the vets the days I didn't ride and enjoyed eavesdropping on their conversations, learned a few new things.    Sucked having Tanza cramp in a hind leg at the vet check on both days I entered LDs, but I managed to take it in stride in public and pretty much overall, just a bit of moping in my trailer right after.  M and J parked right next to me.  Partly there were not a lot of options but at least it didn't feel like they were trying to avoid all contact with me.  J's mare was off after they rode the first day (hoof abscess they thought was healed up got aggravated by the riding probably.)  Tanza had been pulled the day before and was still off that morning so I decided it was no go for me to just walk one of the easy loops as a fun ride and I joined J on her hike and we had a good visit, commiseration session.   She and M are so diligent with conditioning and horse care, but J's young horse pulled a shoulder and her trusty older mare had had the hoof abscess, one of those "life is not fair" instances.   

 I resolved that I have got to cowboy up and get in an ad for a live in care giver.   Of course being me, instead of putting in an ad right away I went "I have to fix the smell downstairs first so it is more livable."    So I've been doing extra grunt work clearing out the store room and wiping up all the mouse shit.  I am partly using the dad care as an excuse for why I'm not riding much this year.   It is a factor, especially with not having a regular person where I am comfortable making plans to ride and barely seeing them before needing to take off to meet someone; but I also just have not had a burning desire to do a bunch of riding.  I want to get back to riding more next year though.  It is a good outlet for me. 

Today I rolled up the big braided style rug and took it out of the store room.   I think that was a huge source of the smell.  I had it outside, next to the entry and every time I walked by the smell smacked me, so I moved it over next to the evergreen bushes. So confirmation that I made the right decision to just trash the rug instead of trying to clean it up.    I need for the dumpster service to empty the dumpster before I put much more in it, I don't want to overflow it when the neighbors have the service.  I should ask S when the pickup is scheduled and put some stuff in there the evening before if they have not filled it yet so I don't have to worry about taking too much space on the next round.