He hasn't said he feels sick, but he has been coughing more and sleeping extra, when he had seemed to be doing better on being awake/alert for a bit more of the day a week or so ago. I'm giving him ivermectin in his morning juice with his vitamins w/o telling him cuz if I told him I think he'd decide the juice tastes off and refuse to drink it "cuz it doesn't do anything anyway" Well its not a symptom reliever its supposed to help the body fight off the virus so you feel better from that in a few days. Back to feeling lonely. No one wants to hear that I am nervous about dad having a bug at his age and state of health.
Two months ago I thought I wanted him to just die early in 2023 rather than me having to figure out how to set up an aide to come in so I could go off and ride but I've gotten used to the care and I have the service now and I'm fairly sure that settling the estate will be even more of a drag than feeling like dad needs a caregiver if I'm gone for more than 2-3 hours.
And I feel like I just have to figure it out alone, cuz folks would either think I'm out to kill him, not insisting on a Doc visit to get a diagnosis when dad is under the weather or just think I'm being a bore wanting to vent about my little neurotic worries.
I took put the pulse oximeter on him. 90 to 92. His normal had been 94 or 95. Not super super scary low, but low and most articles say you need to worry below 95. Now I'm even more unsettled. Should I ask him if he feels sick and want to go in to doc? I suppose I should at least ask.
p.s. I did ask, of course he said "no I don't need to see doc" and then it snowed. He is somewhat better, improved appetite and seems more alert when awake but still sleeping all the time.
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