Ugh work.

 It feels like I have to do ALL the ops group jobs for things to work and I'm getting very burned out.  Part of the burnout is not having gotten away from all the grind of yard, house and dad care for almost a year; but there is also the work aggravation, with some folks who've been doing things for long enough they should be able to troubleshoot but they will NOT do anything that is not spelled out for them.  Then the software engineer, has vision issues (getting a bit better lately he says)  but having the computer read things out for him is not workable for finding an error message buried in 10K lines of log message from a build so I have to poke at some things and get them to work. 

Oh well,  for today that is enough whinging,  time to do the ops form.

Now I need to break away from the computer chair and take a shower.  That is ugh, rural life is sometimes too much grubby hard work.  I suppose if I were more of a networker it would be less so.  I'm not super wealthy but I could afford to hire more stuff done then I do.  I don't know why but sometimes I am so tired but I feel like I can't summon the energy to get ready and go to bed and sometimes I will feel so grubby but resist jumping in the shower.  I guess that is carryover thinking of I should wait until the end of the day so I won't get dirty again but that does not always work out and I really need the boost that comes from taking a needed shower right now early in this evening.   Arghhh,  dad woke up after less than 4 hours so I had to postpone my shower, decided to feed horses first and get him happy.  I think he believes it is Sunday morning,  he wanted tea and pop tarts.  Or maybe he is a bit sick, but he did have the aide make him some bacon and eggs around 1 pm.  

Careless me and saucy Tanza equals a sore foot

 Yesterday after Tanza got his new shoes when I was putting him away he stepped on my right foot.  Ouch.  

I just 'sent' him through the gate like I normally do; but he swung wide enough with a hind foot to land on my foot as I was standing beside the gate holding it open.    It was hurting so bad by the end of the day yesterday that I was in fear that LaVeta couldn't possibly happen but it got much better overnight with the elevation and rest.  So now it is a question mark still but at least I don't feel like there is for sure damage that is going to take a couple months rather than a couple weeks to heal up.

And another clue bat from life that I simply must hire some live in help.  

Rode two saturday's in a row.

 Last week B texted me Friday evening after earlier saying she needed to skip riding,  and we met at Spruce Mountain Saturday mid-morning.   It was hot, but a pretty ride with all the wildflowers.   If I had been thinking I would have chosen Indian Creek to avoid the home stretch of the Ren. Fair traffic.    This week was the Buffalo Creek endurance ride.   I had thought I might go and do the intro ride, but Friday I really worked hard on house and farm yard chores and was too tired to get up early and do the long drive to Buffalo Creek the next morning.  

So I went to Sharp Tail trailhead, not even getting there until noon on Saturday and rode solo.   B was doing the BC LD on Friday and volunteering on Saturday.    I need to text her and ask how it went.  My solo ride went pretty well, I was not wiped out like I had been after the Spruce Mountain ride.  Probably mostly because it was cooler yesterday than last week but I'll take it as a good sign for being able to do 25s at LaVeta if I ride smart and take care of myself and Tanza. 

I may send the BC RM a donation,   I guess a lot of people didn't show up on Friday that had pre-registered.   I would like to see the ride continue, but there was a bit of a grudge on my part for not going on Saturday as well as me being legitimately very tired.   My thought process did include "why go enter a ride managed by the person who I think told B (but not me directly) that my horse with me riding him was 'downright dangerous' two years ago?"   I had not pre-registered because had been a bit on the fence all along about should I go?, I will be late even for the intro, unless I just leave dad alone until the aide comes at 9 because  I didn't ask Amada if the aide could come early on the 5th, yada yada, but I didn't even put Tanza in a pen Friday night or set my alarm to get up early;  I was feeling so spent Friday evening that I knew I wanted to just do a shorter drive to ride somewhere on Saturday.