I very much want to avoid needing a prescription psychotropic drug. I still remember the psychiatrist in sis's riding club decades ago mentioning that withdrawal from them is usually a real bitch; so I don't want to sign on for something I'll need to keep taking forever and be at the mercy of the CCP, where I might get to go through bitch withdrawal anyway because they decide to have a trade war.
But I'm tired of being on the struggle bus so much of the time.
I'm teetering on the edge of going too far with pushing the group boss. But I get soooooo fed up with trying to get his pet projects working after he handed them off to other people who neglected them either because they thought it was a waste of their time vs their own science or did not have anywhere the software background to handle things. And it feels like most of the group thinks they can just ask W4H to do something that is their job; I now push back hard on a lot of that with "I'm swamped", or with the one great young newish hire give her a few sentences on how to do things herself.
And things will get worse before they get better. I like that Trump is taking a chainsaw to all the wasteful federal agencies, and we are not fed employees, but I imagine we will end up with our own hiring freeze. So if someone quits, we'll just have to cover the work they did. And while I'm complaining cuz it feels like no one else is doing much of anything on Thursdays and Fridays, everyone in the group is handling some important tasks and it would be tough to get things done if they were gone and could not be replaced.
L has a cold and couldn't come this week; then she posted to the neighborhood how hard it is getting to do things with the fetus getting so big. So I'll have to tell her it's probably time to stop coming here, and because I wanted to be a good friend I volunteered to let her dog out of its cage and do some chuck it with him tomorrow while she is at her Doc appointment. I need to ask what time that should happen and ask if the neighbor boy could/would come with me. He can probably work the ball chucker way better than I can and has youthful energy.
But there is a still a long way to go to get the big storage shed cleaned up. But I am to a point where I think it will make sense to spray the mouse turds on the floor with bleach and sweep them up now, and then shift back to all the boxes of stuff on the shelving units. One of the items in the shed is a shelving kit. Metal brackets and particle board shelves and I think one is supposed to get their own 2x4s to finish it. Maybe I can get L to post the kit on the neighborhood text group for me and someone will take it. The mouse mess is disgusting, I don't want to get hantavirus, it's a lot more dangerous than covid or flu so I do want to do the bleach spray before sweeping it up, and I should get more poison out there.
I started pecking away at the accumulated clutter over 5 years ago. And I did get rid of a lot of the clutter in the house and took time to rehome a lot of things. But the parents were accumulating stuff for 50 years. Having the dumpster is a big help. It is mild this weekend but I avoided making any plans to try to ride in case CSU told me Tanza was not healing or was behind on healing and I got super depressed, so I took advantage of nice temps to tackle the shed cleanup, and with my own dumpster there was no block of not wanting to put too much into it.
I need to find the contact info for the trailer place a few miles away that fixed my p/u wiring for me and call to see if I can have them get another hitch with just a short drop and fix the lights on my trailer. I could do those things myself unless wires are broken; but I'm not broke, bored, or a painful distance from a business that can do it for me.
I suppose because of the stress of missing my turn and then trying to 'just go over and find the right street' and then losing all track of where I was in relation to the CSU equine clinic yesterday. It was easier when their livestock facility was way out on the edge of town. But the reception desk gal kindly gave me directions and they were able to look at Tanza even though I was way past my set appointment time.
The other stress is my housemate got transferred to SLC, he left yesterday. He texted me Thursday, I guess that is all the notice they give their apprentice linemen, and sounded like even full linemen don't get much notice; that is just the nature of that job as opposed to a lineman that works for a local utility. I am happy for J to be only 4 hours from his home so he can see his wife and toddler every weekend. But I'm still stressed that I have to find a new housemate. I don't know whether to try to find someone with or wanting to get a horse; or try to get another very handy guy that is doing contract work near here. When I have to start being in the office 3x/week in June it would be quite nice to have a horse person to cover evening feeding, but I can figure something out with the neighbor kids if I need to and it would be nice to have someone do more fixing for a few months.
Tanza's fetlock lameness is improving. They did not take new x-rays, the vet said since its only 2 months she wouldn't expect to be able to see much change on the sesamoid x-rays, but with the level of improvement in gait after flexion from November she didn't think he needed to have shock wave therapy and if they do the shockwave it is $800-1K each time and they do it 3 or 4 times every 2 weeks. The only issue they found on his stifle was some excess fluid, and that might from him compensating for the fetlock soreness.
So keep on doing what I have been, using the cold laser 4-5 times a week and feeding the OCD pellets and I can bring him back for a recheck in 2 months. I'll probably just have Dr Mike evaluate him. I need to get another trailer ball with only a couple inches of drop to pull my trailer with B's pickup. I guess I was hoping/thinking I'd have my pickup to use by then. But I should drive B's pickup somewhat more often, I've been using the trickle charger some to keep the battery okay but vehicles should be driven a couple times a month for other things.
After neighbor moved my dumpster to the other side of the driveway for me with the pallet forks on the tractor the dumpster service has been able to reach and empty it. I should still get some fill for that ditch, it might need some help when the ground is no longer freezing overnight. I had to report for jury duty on Jan 6th. Thankfully I didn't get seated on the jury for the pool I was in but I picked up a virus that hit like a truck on the 9th. 5 days of ivermectin got me past it, but it really did hit me hard. I don't know if it was influenza or I was just hit that hard by a regular cold bug. I am now getting some excess sinus drainage, hopefully I don't wind up with a sinus infection or other bacterial crud. The coworkers have been sick a lot this winter so I don't think there is an issue with my health, seems to just be a year for a lot of viruses going around.
I really need to call the CSU equine center so I can get in and get copies of the images they took and I also need to book an appointment to get the fetlock x-rayed again and do the shockwave. I think the cold laser I've been doing is helping a bit but my gut feeling is that just that and rest is not going to get enough healing. I keep getting depressed by the situation. I figure I will retire Tanza but I want him pasture sound. I don't know if it makes any sense for me to get a new horse. I kind of thinks I should just ride CJ and Sadie some and either try to find someone that would like someone to ride one of their extra horses or maybe just go and volunteer at rides. It seems very hard to find time to do much riding.
The dumpster service I signed up for was not able to get to the dumpster this morning. Argghhh, why does everything have to end up being complicated. I will have to get the tractor tomorrow and see if I can move the dumpster to the other side of the driveway which I think is less soft, that is where the old dumpster was; but I expect I need to get some fill put in even on that side.
Neighbors had invited me to come over at 2 for Christmas dinner a week ago than canceled on me Xmas eve day because daughter had a fever. I cooked a tenderloin filet from the Omaha Steaks box my brother sent me and some frozen tater dish from O.S plus made a rough apple crisp. The filet was pretty tasty even though I ended up cooking it a bit more than I had planned. Hopefully I do better with the next ones. I need to decide what to give L and D for their anniversary. They took me and B out to dinner for my birthday so I need to get them something, maybe a gift card to that steakhouse. I suppose I shouldn't just give them cash, but I might.
I got a cold laser to see if I can get Tanza's stifle and sesamoid bones to heal. Used it on Lady first and she seemed to enjoy it. She has been pretty uncomfortable lately so I need to get the power lines marked or just dig where I'm pretty sure it's safe and get her PTS soon unless the laser makes a huge difference quickly. I should have texted folks to try to make a riding date but I couldn't bring myself to do it. I decided I do need to change/fix the fence in Taj's pen pretty soon and I will tackle that instead; but I am going to have to force myself to ask folks if they'll ride with me, Taj is too goofy at home, plus I should run B's p/u regularly.
